I hope we get there

As I walk down the stairs to myself

I lose the fear that overcame me

I felt warmth with each one step

As I approach the dark hell within.

For outside I've walked long paths

Sometimes I hear my soul withering

But inside I've flown days back

When God and Earth lived only in me.

With each step I lose fear

The deaf thud of insanity

I hear demons that scratch the wall

Accept the smile in humility.

Whatever darkness I hold inside

I've come to fear and forgive

Rage, Ice, Death and Madness

Like puppies sit waiting for me.

A thousand hells inside my mind

Scream for my attention

When weakened I turn my back

Reaching for comprehension.

I ran and man so fast

Fearing The Devil and Mikael

Fearing judgment my soul would grasp

And bind me in a fiery hell.

A limit to fear to one like me

I've come to understand

Whatever worlds reside within

I am the only one.

My face hides a thousand masks

Of fears that won't turn back

My courage unnecessary

As acceptance held my heart.

Bring the calm

I stand not evil for my soul is white and black

I will never ask forgiveness for the way I've cursed my life.

For the way I've killed them all,

For the way I have wanted to save this world,

And the times I wanted to face God.

Tell him of his mistakes, the Evil he forgot.

That we were held accountable for the dark in his creation.

Please forgive me for my endless thought transgressions.

My mind won't stop and my heart still races.

Why do you let us fall into damnation?

Are we really monsters with no salvation?

Rage and pain will guide me in the ascension,

As I intend to force from you an answer.

My face falls to tears as I see you before the question.

Myself is the one I see in the Throne of Creation.

There can be no doubt I've lost my boat and anchor.

Whatever held me to be sane has forever been lost to the ages

And in my heart I feel myself to be immortal.

To have walked this world from the very same moment,

You said let there be light, from then I went forward.

I snap back to myself, alone in my bed.

Catching glimpses of my mind's shallow depth.

Instead of fear or callous regret

I feel a peace I've rarely felt.

Accept yourself, Jose Miguel

For you are just one of them

You bear the mind of El

You bear the weights of Hell.

You fear damnation of your people

As is you were their leader

You accept the truth of defeat

For they will never listen.

So many of us choose Evil

And plainly consume the Earth

Some dread impending nonexistence

And some play the game they should play.

Odds of surviving the perils ahead

The greatest minds wouldn't want to tell

Your instinct tells you we won't be okay

Your mind tells you there must be a way.

You hope in despair, hope in despair

You fear the conclusion more than you care

To admit to yourself, sacrifice for them

Not for the millions, just for your share.

Just for the children, let the children play

Let them live the joys of this Earth

Let them know that for Earth we care

In them the hopes, a bright future ahead.

As I step into darkness, deep into my well

And I hear the demons inside my head

It warms my heart that I get to share

All of my fears and pains with them.

I hope we get there.