As I walk down the stairs to myself
I lose the fear that overcame me
I felt warmth with each one step
As I approach the dark hell within.
For outside I've walked long paths
Sometimes I hear my soul withering
But inside I've flown days back
When God and Earth lived only in me.
With each step I lose fear
The deaf thud of insanity
I hear demons that scratch the wall
Accept the smile in humility.
Whatever darkness I hold inside
I've come to fear and forgive
Rage, Ice, Death and Madness
Like puppies sit waiting for me.
A thousand hells inside my mind
Scream for my attention
When weakened I turn my back
Reaching for comprehension.
I ran and man so fast
Fearing The Devil and Mikael
Fearing judgment my soul would grasp
And bind me in a fiery hell.
A limit to fear to one like me
I've come to understand
Whatever worlds reside within
I am the only one.
My face hides a thousand masks
Of fears that won't turn back
My courage unnecessary
As acceptance held my heart.
Bring the calm
I stand not evil for my soul is white and black
I will never ask forgiveness for the way I've cursed my life.
For the way I've killed them all,
For the way I have wanted to save this world,
And the times I wanted to face God.
Tell him of his mistakes, the Evil he forgot.
That we were held accountable for the dark in his creation.
Please forgive me for my endless thought transgressions.
My mind won't stop and my heart still races.
Why do you let us fall into damnation?
Are we really monsters with no salvation?
Rage and pain will guide me in the ascension,
As I intend to force from you an answer.
My face falls to tears as I see you before the question.
Myself is the one I see in the Throne of Creation.
There can be no doubt I've lost my boat and anchor.
Whatever held me to be sane has forever been lost to the ages
And in my heart I feel myself to be immortal.
To have walked this world from the very same moment,
You said let there be light, from then I went forward.
I snap back to myself, alone in my bed.
Catching glimpses of my mind's shallow depth.
Instead of fear or callous regret
I feel a peace I've rarely felt.
Accept yourself, Jose Miguel
For you are just one of them
You bear the mind of El
You bear the weights of Hell.
You fear damnation of your people
As is you were their leader
You accept the truth of defeat
For they will never listen.
So many of us choose Evil
And plainly consume the Earth
Some dread impending nonexistence
And some play the game they should play.
Odds of surviving the perils ahead
The greatest minds wouldn't want to tell
Your instinct tells you we won't be okay
Your mind tells you there must be a way.
You hope in despair, hope in despair
You fear the conclusion more than you care
To admit to yourself, sacrifice for them
Not for the millions, just for your share.
Just for the children, let the children play
Let them live the joys of this Earth
Let them know that for Earth we care
In them the hopes, a bright future ahead.
As I step into darkness, deep into my well
And I hear the demons inside my head
It warms my heart that I get to share
All of my fears and pains with them.
I hope we get there.