I Never Thought I Would Say Goodbye

So you sent me away just like that. You packed my things and all what we had.  I planned not to move and  I wish I stayed.

I wish I had the choice to stay.  I wish I had the chance to say that I was willing to stay even if you wanted me to go away.  I wish I had the chance to hold on to you. I wish I had the chance to hear you say that you did not mean everything you said.  I wish I had the chance to hear you say that you badly wanted me to stay.

You sent me away, very far away. Then you built your walls so that I could not return. No matter how hard I knocked, or how I tried to break the lock,  I could not enter your universe again.

I never thought I would say goodbye when I was the one asking,  "Why? ". I never thought I would lose you when you still had me.  I never thought that forever also loses its time.

So here I am now,  staying at your door.  I keep saying my goodbyes while asking myself why I have to. Just because you sent me away just like that.