I Never Told You. You Never Know

It could have been a happy ending but I met you when my heart was not yet ready. It could have been a happy ending but I met you when my heart was not  prepared.

We’re highschool that time. When you asked me and I lied. I regreted. But it was too late.

We could have been perfect!
You love music the way I loved it. I love the way you plucked the strings to accompany the lyrics I wrote.

I miss the bonding with you. The time when you’re teasing me. The time when you’re scolding me about something which is not good for me. I like everything in you.

From the beginning untill now, I know deep in my heart that I love you but I cannot love you. So, I did what I had to do — I had to leave and Stay away from you.

I always put down myself. I always think negative about myself. When it comes about you and I, though I know I need you. I never had the confidence to show that I really deserve you. Because for me, I don’t deserve you that’s why I distant myself from you.

It’s now going to be six years the last time we saw each other. The hate and the love that you felt for me, was consuming me and I felt the hate more than the love you used to make me feel.

The last time was you borrowed my pen. From that time, I always remember you to every guy I met. Especially, when they borrow a pen from me. When they pluck the strings of their guitar. When they play their songs from their phones.
You’re so special.

I SEE YOU TO EVERYMAN I MET.

I hate to admit it. But I’m sorry because untill now I still really love you!

Everything changes.
I am here now in front of others.
Telling them. “ How much I Love You.” Where in fact, I never told you. You never know.