Since when did you start unloving me?
When was the last time you spent thinking of me?
Last time, I remembered how happy you were when you met me,
I hope it remained the same as the years go by and I hope, you too.
As the day came running,
You also started fading.
You never came to see me again,
You barely missed my hugs,
And I missed you, too.
The time you let me smile,
I know it was also the time you started to make me cry.
You should be the most important person in my life.
Yet you didn’t make it.
You walked away.
Even a kid would never see it coming.
Until the kid was hurt.
And the pain hit that child.
The child was having a hard time to stand up.
You used to help that child before.
No one would ever lift up that child again but you.
The child called your name,
Yet, you didn’t answer.
You didn’t even look back.
Since then, the child was like a lost puppy.
The child wailed but you never saw that.
The child was able to stand by own,
The child managed to smile and happened to be happy again.
The child made it and you witnessed nothing.
The child before is not a kid anymore.
The child is now a grown up.
The child grew up without you.
It wasn’t easy. It will never be.
But being without you made that child tough and independent.
If you didn’t know, I was that child.
The child you used to left,
You left me hanging with nothing to hold on to.
You left me broke.
You left me, holding your hand knowing that you’re not holding mine anymore.
You made me vulnerable,
You made me weak,
But I made everything strong.
You were supposed to be the one I admired the most,
I loved the most,
I cared the most,
The person I can’t live without.
But I made it!
I can do live without you.
Without your presence,
Without your hugs,
Without your kisses on my forehead like before.
Yes.
It should be you, Dad.
I called your name again.
It saddened me,
I didn’t heard any.