It has been my favorite time of the day - midnight, when i found myself composing words in my head then looked for a pen and a piece of paper to write it all down.
It's been a month, I guess. I'm keeping myself busy to avoid the negativity around. I want to say good bye to depression and all those matters.
I want a new air, a breath of fresh air.
A nice scenery.
A good look to the sky.
I won't lie, I still like the things in dark.
But I want to travel on the opposite side of fear.
Almost everything better is on that side.
I want a new season,
a new reason.
Hell yeah, but that's to remain alive.
January was more of looking forward.
February was a busy month.
March came with too much struggles.
April ended some of my chapters.
May, i had it too bad.
June was exciting.
July made me almost back to depression. But luckily, I didn't.
August was kinda special. Of course, it has been, always.
September, I found a new environment but did not last for long.
October, oh that's just a month ago. I loved everything about October. That is special.
November, it's now. I'm preparing myself for the next days and months.
December, the time of the year. I can't wait for Christmas.
See the plot twist?
Did you just asked?
How am I?
Oh. There’s someone who cares and dared to ask how I am. Thank you.
I’m better now. I believe I am. Since that month which changed the mood of my year, that made me better. I’m now happy. Yes, genuinely happy.
Every night before I sleep, it never happened that I didn’t pray for the right people to come and to stay. I pray that I can handle to let go and let people leave if God doesn’t allowed them to stay in my life, if having them will be for no good. I am over grateful and blessed to have the right people in this moment; God answered that prayer of mine. Every day I tend to be wise, wiser than before. I learned to let go of the toxicity that made me suffocated all of the time, same thing with bitterness. I appreciated myself more. I appreciated these people behind me. I want them to be happy like how happy I am right now.
I will be thankful every day for that someone who helped me be my better self. Someone who made me love the stars and the moon more and made me appreciate the light while I'm in the amidst of darkness. I'm more than blessed to have that someone for coming into my life just right when I needed to be saved.
It is true that there will always be hope.
Don’t you ever think that there isn’t good that’s coming in your life. No matter how bad you think your day or month or year is, just look for hope. Sometimes we’re just blinded by some things that’s why we’re not able to see that hope that we’re looking for. There are a lot of goodness that’s happening in your life yet did you even look for those? Once in a while, let yourself appreciate the light within yourself instead of focusing on those negativeness and darkness. This helps you not to lose your own power, not to lose yourself, and not to see yourself as worse.
I know you needed it just how much I want you all to have it. Despite of all the negativity around you, please look for hope.
The world needs hope. I need hope. You need hope. We all need it.
Open your eyes. Let yourself see the light. Look around you. There’s so much hope.
Please let someone have hope today. Give hope to everyone, every day.