I WANTED TO BE HEARD!

I had so many questions to ask, to the ones who crowded my mind with thoughts, dilemmas and questions. But never had guts to approach them and ask them , it was so because I thought I may have had some misconception / they will have one about me when they listen to me / start hating me for what I said .I wanted to talk to them about how I felt ,how they felt , were they actually doing well , what thing they said had hurt me , if had hurt them . And then I recalled what my favorite person told me , she said you need to tell people what you feel or they are never going to get it (they are humans too) ,if you never tell them things are just going to get worse. This helped me gather some guts and I finally decided to tell them. Struggle was not over here, I use to spend an entire day or maybe days to decide what to say so that it hurts them less. And then I approached one among them (who I confirmed was really changed and was at fault) telling that person that I was hurt and what I got in return was IGNORANCE and declaration that I keep blaming people. I was hurt again, I overlooked my words if they were harsh. I did nothing but cry. My mind was crowded again , in this crowd one thought said loudly “She never said every body will be cool with it . Some are going to feel sorry for what they did , some will clear your misconception(if it was one) and be a little mad at you for misunderstanding and some will be taking you totally wrong.” Doesn’t matter if they take you wrong .

What I realized was that there will be few pair of ears which will always be deaf to your screams, complains , questions or clarifications. And I imagined my favorite person say “HAPPY REALIZATIONS !”