It was 2003,,I think, I might completed my third standard and having my summer holidays......I went to my grand mother's home in the vocation. I came back to my home town after a month which was filled me with a lot of happiness... As I was a kid actually not kid ,I think so, a GIRL,,, I'm active in everything..... I was very helpful for my family in the very small things which takes a smile and satisfaction on my parent's face.
When I return to my home I saw a new,strange face near my home.. He was my neighbourhood aunt's son. Who came to home after 2 years. I don't know the reason why he was not lived with his parents and where he was in those two years. He is 15 to 18 years elder to me when I was completed my 3rd standard.
As the time passes it became very frequent to his arrivals to my home with some needs like screw-driver or to met my dad or to get a pipe line of water to his home from mine and etc.My school started,, now I am fourth standard.My dad used to went for his work at early mornings and my mom goes after I went to my school. I used to come to home for my lunch. Its the only time of nearly half hour which I spent in my home all alone.My mom gives the key to my neighbour's.
One day when I went to collect the keys from that aunt I found her son at their home.He was talking with someone on telephone.I just collected my key and went back to my home for lunch.While I'm having my lunch he came to my home & sat on the wooden sofa.He switched on the TV for himself and watching. I finished my lunch and supposed to go to school back,, then he grab me close to him and hold me tightly in his arms. I am almost crying by his tight hug which is hurting me so badly.There were nobody near my home. Everybody used to go to their work.
He din't care about my cry but he shut my mouth with his hand and then warned me to don't shout.He just playing with me as a puppet in his fingers.Then he badly make out with me,, I can't bare that pain,, which in turn coming out as a flow of tears running down my cheeks.After sometime he went to his home. I was cried a lot till the pain of my body became a kind of normal.But not fine. I went to school back when it is about to finish.I just picked up my bag and returned to home.While returning to my home,, he warned me,,'to don't tell anything to my parents,otherwise he will throw me in the pond which is near to my home'.
I was helpless.I din't tell anything to anyone,even to my parents. Then he used to come to my home when nobody is there.He kisses me,make out with me and then leaves. I can't bare that pain any more but I can't even supposed to tell anyone. So I decided to write an exam, if I cleared that exam I will get an opportunity to study in a school with hostel facility and food without any cost.With the blessings of the God ,I got seated in a gurukul school from my fifth standard. And then onwards I am studying there till my class 10th completed. In those six years when I got holidays I went to my relatives home & spent one or two days with my family at my home town before leaving to my hostel.
In January 2010,,, when my Pongal holidays finished & I went to my hostel. My parents shifted to the city of Hyderabad by some reason.Eventually,,I went to the city, a new place, new people when I completed my class 10.
Now its 2015,,, But still I got him in my dreams & I could feel that pain in me even now.I am raping by him everyday. Its the happened story of my life which I din't share it with anyone on this earth till today. It becomes heavier to me to live with that nightmare everyday,every night.I want to be relief and lighten myself by sharing it with someone who can not identifies me,,but can understand me and my pain.
I don't know how many of you connect with my life. When I can't expect my parents to understand the pain in my eyes,how could I expect from you people,, just by reading them with my "computer typed" words. Its all just my stuppidity.
Last but not least thanks for reading the story of pain in my life I ever experienced.
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