Quickly, I dropped my heart. There is no need for me to fight for something that is no longer there. I'll just let the current of waves take me somewhere safe. This is not a retreat but a form of regret. I feel sorry if I can't wait for you until my heart mend from the rupture of your secrets.
I know that leaving you would make me feel sick every freaking day of my life but I know that this is the best way to redeem myself from my past. I don't need to explain why I have to bid goodbye. I just need to walk away from us because this is no longer the memory that I want to keep with me. For us, for you whom I cherished for two years. For two fucking years of my doomed life.
I want to say thank you though. Thank you for making me feel brandnew. Thank you for the pain, it taught me how to be strong again. I know it's gonna be hard but I am willing to saip again. Again and again. Until I reach the end to start a new beginning.
My love, I will remember our pain. My love, I will remember everything. And when I am ready , I'll smile again. Then I will love again.