I don't care...
Three words which i wanna be. It's numb, cold and heartless at some point but maybe it's the best thing for me.
I ain't the nicest person on earth. But i get hurt by the way I care for others, yet i get nothing that i deserve. I hate it when i try my best to make people around me happy but they wouldn't appreciate it. If only I can slap them the effort that i'm giving, i'd literally do it. I hate the feeling that i'm being useless when they can't get anything from me that would benefit them the most. I fucking hate getting the things that other people didn't like. What the fuck do they think I am? A leftover catcher?! Hell no!
I'm sick of all this shit.
Feeling all this and having no one to talk about it. This is real bullshit! Am i getting tortured in this life? If past life does exist, am i bad person before?
Yep! I may sound really dramatic right now. Sorry 'bout that. I just feel like my heart is gonna explode if I don't let all this bad things inside my head out. This feels so heavy... i just wanna be away form everything.
-c.a