Today I am swallowed by total sadness. I don't know why and I don't have any idea. I just feel like I don't want to be happy, I want to be eaten by this monster inside. So I thought I should come back to writing... where my life's revolving. I think, if I write what I am feeling right now it'll make a difference.
This heavy 'thing' inside me will be gone. Vanish. Pop out like a bubble.
The feeling that I want to cry for no reason, the sadness that envelops my whole, I don't even know how to show a real laugh nor smile.
No, this isn't depression. I know because it's not killing me. I'm not sick of life. I know how hard it is to suffer one. This is just total sadness and total emotions.
Or maybe on the bright side, sadness just wants to hug me and cheer me up, letting me know that I am not alone. That even her is always by my side.