If I could travel through time

I keep on asking why certain things happen. Why do I have this kind of life? Why do things turned out to be that way? Why do I have to experience things badly? Why do I always have to be in the same miserable situation? Why do I have to commit the same mistake again and again? Why do I have to go through failures though how much I tried? How much I keep faith to Him? Why do I have to meet people and just get trouble with them? Why do I have to meet people whom I can just get so hard to be with them? Why do I have to meet people whom I'll get attached but just eventually hurt me in the end? Why do I miss so many chances? Why memories exist when we can't do anything about it or can't exactly happen again? Why can't i belong though I tried?

Why do planned things don't happen even I tried so hard? Why do certain things don't happen the way I want it to be? Why do we need to think and prepare ourselves for tomorrow if it won't be real exactly as it is? Why do certain things aren't really certain? Why we can't guess what will happen next? Why we can't ever know what lies in the future?

If I could travel back in time, I will erase al, the abd memories so I won't feel any pain now. If I could travel back in time, I can change the way things happen. I can warn myself if pushing through a certain thing would just be hard for me or not. I will be able to escape from misery. If I could travel back in time, i'll prevent myself from committing mistakes or done better or not do it again. Maybe I would improve myself so I didn't make faildures. Maybe I have done my best to achieve what I want. If I could go back in time, I can turn out myself to be the person the people around me wants me to be so I could not just be a no one who fits in but a someone who stands out. I may not be loosing any chances. If I could travel back in time, I can choose the life I want and the people I'' be with. I can choose who I can be so people I want will want me back. If I could travel back in time, I would do it exactly the way I want it far from anyone's interventions.

If I could travel through time, I would manipulate the present and the future as well like what I made from the past. I could be the better person than I am now. If I could travel through time, I could choose whom/which I'll stay with or leave behind in the future. If I could travel through time, I can make things certain and secured. I will not be making sacrifices. I will not get hard trying to win things which I can never get. I will not be insisting myself to someone who can never be mine. I may not be thinking and worrying so much to what will happen next. If I could travel through time and see what will happen ahead, I may change or prepare for it. I can make an assured future.

But how can I do this? How could I travel through time if in reality, I can't. We can't ever do that. Thus in the end, I don't really want to travel through time. Not just because I can't but because everything in the present will be ruined. I will not be the person I am now nor doing these things exactly. I don't want to alter things just because I want it to. Every hardships and failures that I've went through happens for a reason. I live because it's the way God wants it. I live by fate but of free will. I will not travel through time though I may be given a chance. All the missed chances and regrets, there's another best for us. God's plan is always better than ours. God doesn't give what you don't need. thus whatever will be, shall be. Truth is, there's no other way of bringing back the things which have been lost nor altering the future. Learn to move then grow up. Do not ever make rooms for regrets. Everything's happen at God's most perfect time. Just learn how to wait. Focus on the present and on achieving your dreams. Yet, be like a postage stamp. Stick to one thing until you get there.