If there is only one smile left in you

Created & authored by: Anup D.

He goes to hospital every day

To see her

To feel the need to touch her and sit by her side

She never responds

She can’t

Her state of coma don’t let her

Her body is dead

Those eyes of her just see

See him everyday

Holding her hand

Like he will never let her go

It has been 8 years and he never missed a day

He comes there

Talks about few things here and there

To give her company

Hoping to see at least a tiny reaction

Sometimes just as little as a zilch

An inch of her eyelash to move

An eye contact for a Nano second

A little press of hand from her when he holds her

Even hoping for her to feel a slight heaviness in her breathe on seeing him

But she never moved

Cemented and unmoved

He is dying everyday to see her like that

Every one everyday reminds him she is not going to recover

But he knows that the last sense to leave us is our sense of listening

That gives him some hope

The hope which makes him crawl through these 8 years

A hope but never an expectation

A broken heart and a cunning frustration

One train one journey but two different station

But he never lets her see his state and agony

Quite the opposite he behaves normal and funny

Some memories with him make her live

To see the next day

Some unfulfilled desires

Makes her hollow from within every single day

She wants to say

She is dying to express

And say ‘Yes’

To the question he always asks her, ‘Don’t you still love me’?

Before he hugs her and leaves everyday

Only to come back again the next day

To be with her

To feel her near

The only happiness in the world is

To love and to be loved

She cries within her

It always hurts when you have someone in your heart

But you can’t have them in your arms

They were both lovebirds

Like rhymes and poetic words

They had lived those days

Those days of laughter and fun

When they both were in school

Young and cool

Those days when his friends use to tell him that ‘to make her fall in love you have to make her laugh’

But for him, every time she laughs his love for her attains the height of a giraffe

They were in love as long as they can remember

Like the honey bee and the sun flower

They loved each other every second, every minute and every hour

'She is in her last stage'

One day Doctor says

As he checks her pulse

‘Please go home and take some rest’

‘I’m seeing that you have been transfixed here for past 4 days’

‘We have really tried everything we could’

‘And there is nothing much left for us to do’

‘She would not move even an inch’

‘Your 8 years of coming here everyday could not change that’

‘Please accept this now and take care of your own health’

Doctor left the room

Pressing gently on his shoulder as he walked out

His eyes are watery

His dim lit pupils express what he can’t with words

A tiny drop of tears rolls down his cheeks

Which makes the track for the rest of the big ones to follow

His tears from the eyes to the edge of the face

Have travelled the exact same journey

Like his immature love from ‘I love you because I need you’

To ‘I need you because I love you’

An entire journey of a lifetime

He knew that this stage and day would come

But power of the truth is also to shock

And it’s not the least known

Amongst it’s many other appeals

He stood there in silence

His eyes are transfixed on hers

A homely bird seeing it’s nest go

Not a word spoken

Only eyes do the talking

Sounds of this universe are extreme opposite

Yet they co-exist with blissful harmony

Sound of silence of two breathes

And the sound of screaming and burning of two hearts

Both co-exist in harmony

Fortunately they both have learned to understand each other’s silence

Words are only for those who have yet to achieve this dimension of love

He promised himself to not say ‘Goodbye’

In the end because he will only cry

He is seeing her last few breaths

Love does not know it’s own depth until the hour of separation

He does not feel the need to touch her now and sit by her side

Because he knew she never responds

She can’t

Her state of coma don’t let her

Her body is dead

Those eyes of her just see

See him everyday

Holding her hand

Like he will never let her go

It has been 8 years and he never missed a day

He comes there

Talks about few things here and there

To give her company

Hoping to see at least a tiny reaction

Sometimes just as little as a zilch

An inch of her eyelash to move

An eye contact for a Nano second

A little press of hand from her when he holds her

Even hoping for her to feel a slight heaviness in her breathe on seeing him

But she never moved

Cemented and unmoved

As he turned around to go

He just ask her what he ask her everyday before he leaves

He knew for the last time

‘Do you still love me?’

Not expecting her to reply

but SHE SMILED

P.s: If there is only one smile left in you, give it to the person you have loved the most. Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. Love buzz. It really does