I'll Be Thinking Of You

Time is ticking

You'll be away for a long time

I should be spending more time with you while I can

But I can't just ignore these bittersweet thoughts.

The mornings I wake up from a text from you

The days we just listen to music

The times I get to hear your thoughts about anything

The moments I feel very comfortable with you.

You've been very accepting and understanding

You never forced me to anything

I can feel how you care for people and for me

I can be myself around you.

Those nights either of us can't sleep

And hopes we can catch each other online

Those nights you pass out, and me feeling connected with you

You make me feel at ease even with these little things.

I don't really do small talks

I often ask "How are you?" because I'm concerned

And wonder how you are doing with life

I really wish we can meet in real life.

I'm sad with the thought of not hearing from you for a long time

'Cause I'll be thinking of you

And the possibility of you forgetting about me.

I guess I'm just starting to miss you.

I'm afraid I'll be longing for you

And there's nothing I can do but reread our messages.

Ten days left

I should make the most of it.

This sounds so dramatic, maybe I'm exaggerating

But I know these are real, as real as my tears right now

Don't worry, I'm just being myself

These are what I think and feel these past days.

I'll be looking forward to the time we can spend an entire day together

I'd like to get to know you more and you to get to know me more

And if that day doesn't come, don't be sad

Life is just how it is, it's unpredictable.

You're right, time doesn't guarantee us anything

But I can guarantee I'll give my best

You have your life, and so do I

You'll be working on yourself and I'll do the same.

There are only two things you asked from me

To let you go and to not wait for you.

I apologize for one thing though

I can't promise I will not wait.

You are not a burden to me

Yes, there are times you make me sad, and that's normal

But there are more times you make me happy and at ease

I am happy with you and I want you to be happy as well.

It will be my decision to wait

It's my fault if I get hurt,

Just be you and focus on yourself

Simply seeing you bloom will make me smile.

I'm sorry this thing went longer than I thought haha

It just proves how much I've been thinking about you and us

And it's okay, you are a challenge I'm willing to take.

I like you, I really do.