I am in love with myself.
Is it weird? I love myself to the point where I want to marry me. Yeah, right.
But the thing is, how can't I fall in love with myself when I'm the only one who understands me. I'm the only one who comforts me, helps me, stays with me, and everything. I date myself, I eat with myself, I treat myself, I give advise to myself.... I just love my whole damn self!
I don't know. I'm not a loner, I have my friends and I have a loving family. But, they don't know the emptiness and loneliness I'm feeling inside! And I am so proud of myself that I can live through it, I can somehow survive from it.
I am in love with myself that I even thought of kissing my own lips. But how? I want to kiss my forehead, I want to hug myself from the back, I want to cuddle with myself. BUT HOW THE HELL I'M GOING TO DO THIS?! Myself needs an award for surviving each day from this reality. I love myself, can I marry me? But marrying my own would just mean being alone without a lover. And that's my problem.
Why can't anyone love me the way I love myself? I take care of me, I always make sure that I'm in the good shape, safe and sound. Am I not enough for someone? I'm not rushing things and I don't plan to. But can't they see my worth? I love myself enough that I don't even care about those people judging and criticizing me. I know my flaws and weaknesses. Can't someone accept that?
Will I be forever alone? I know that God is with me and I believe in Him, I believe in His plans for me. But I want this emptiness to be filled, this loneliness to become happiness! I'm so done with my life.