I'm sorry

I'm sorry I cannot make you feel better.

It just made me feel bitterly sad that I can't make you feel better.

When I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, or ordered my favorite coffee and being told it was out of the list, or to simply put that everytime I feel upset, you make me happy.

Everything that might happen to me, severely impacting the state of my emotion, a simple encouragement or hug from you eases my pessimistic sentiment. 

Everytime i'll have my bad days, you are my supplement to turn it into a good one.

I am sad, and disappointed, with myself alone. You are my happy pill for a day full of shits, why can't I be one for you? 

I don't feel like i'm helping whenever you're down and i'm cheering you up.. and I feel disappointed.. really, fucking disappointed with myself.

I'm sorry I can't make you feel better.

I'm sorry I can't be a happy pill.

I'm sorry I can't be a stress reliever.

Writing this down 'cause i'm just really disappointed with myself. I'm.. i'm so fucking disappointed.