I said to myself. I have a lot of hopes inside me. I never give up about getting something I want. I know how to give up, but I never gave up myself. I have this curse called hope.
I was hoping there is someone who save me from my shitty misery, but there is none. I never waited long enough to give up. But im tired of picking the person who save me. I am tired of rejection. I am tired on how people tell a story about me. All i know right now is give up. End my hopes, that there is someone who can accept me. I am tired of being me, im tired of being honest. I am tired fooling myself...that you can love me too.
I am tired of being left alone in a dark junkyard. I feel like I was also a junk, i was waiting for someone to pick me up and reshape me. There is a ugly things around me, but people still choose them over me--me that i see so precious.
Help me,
Love