In just 4 minutes...

3 years... I know you and you know me too. Things are in favor of us two. Everything was so right. Then I told myself you are finally the one.

"How could I let you go?" I asked myself.

Funny to say, I didn't consider our story as same as those teleseryes rather a fairy tale, to have a happy ending. But...it...was all the other way around.

Just one glimpse, I badly need to say Goodbye My Love. I know it hurts you hearing those words.

Is it about third party? No, neither does falling out of love nor hating you. I need to do this not by choice but by circumstances.

I said goodbye to save you..
I said goodbye to be fair with you...
I said goodbye...and
I courageously said goodbye to show how much I love you by letting you go.

You could say I don't deserve you but I do. I do deserve you and frankly no one else should deserve you but me. Yes you're hurt and it's nothing compare to the pain I'm going through right this very moment like I've been stabbed a hundred times.

I was still holding back, still hoping you'd cheer me up to fight,still believing you'd hold my hand and  that maybe you'd ask me what's wrong and say "We could go through this baby."

Unfortunately you didn't. In just 4 minutes you've thrown... You threw our memories and the times we've been through. In just 4 minutes you're completely gone.

But don't be bothered then, I know it hurts you staying so I needed to get things over. I was more than hurt seeing you hurting with me though I feel happy so much happy... Knowing you're happy with her. Crazy isn't it?

And I whispered "I've let you go."

Tears weren't actually falling but deep inside I was breaking...Completely broken.

Am I torturing myself from doing such a thing?

Is it selfishness or selflessness?

3 years...note 3 years I once knew love yet in just 4 minutes I learned to own pain for love.