An avid dreamer for most of the nights,
And days as well, filled with blacks and whites,
Until someone shakes me and brings me back,
Am I in reality again? I am unable to track,
What used be to my heart's only desire,
Had turned into hurt and a burning ire,
Wouldn't it be nice to have a flip switch,
To turn off the memories,I've come to despise which..
I trained to turn my thoughts away from you,
And succeeded in many instances but few,
The wall I built around so no one would pass through,
Is now just a picket fence to let another in, not you..
You turned my beautiful dreams into a nightmare,
What did you think of me, how did you dare,
I remember the day you laughed at my face,
Mocked me,made me feel like an utter disgrace,
The purest form of love that I used to feel,
Had turned into hatred that no one could heal..
But I came to realise that you are undeserving and I am not blind,
Because loving or hating someone keeps the person forever on the mind,
So I am just indifferent now,whether you live or die,
The nightmares I can't control, although I try,
I've found the right one and he found me,
I am as close to happiness as I ever dreamt to be,
Now when I wake up, he is right by my side,
He owns my fragile heart and soon I will be his bride..
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