It's over now

I will let my heart and pen talk tonight
I will let their ideas collide
This fragile heart can speak no more
And so I let the pen do the chore.

Believe me I don't wanna do this
Because to pen it down is to remember all the pain.
Believe me I badly wanted to just forget everything and move on
Believe me I don't wanna hurt myself.
Believe me I'm trying.

Tears had dried on that old letter
Image had faded on that old photograph
He's gone.
His contagious smile,
His throaty laugh,
And all those butterflies,
They were all gone.
All that's left were scars. 
All he left was pain.
Was fear.

I feared everything.
I'm afraid of falling in love.
I'm afraid of getting hurt.
I'm afraid of trusting.
I feared everyone's promises.
I doubted everyone's love.

I'm tired.
I'm so hurt.
I'm so tired of being hurt.
And I feel so helpless.
My own feelings is drowning me, I feel so vulnerable.
The pain embracing me... It's unbearable.

It's over now I must accept.
A teardrop fell, I smiled
I swear it would be the last one.

I put a period before the pen runs out of ink,
I swear this is the end.