Know your worth.

"Okay! This is the last time I am trying. I promise, I'll not call him after this" she murmured. But deep down in her heart she knew she can't resist herself. Crossing her fingers, inhaling deeper, steering over her senses she dialed her favorite phone number again. "The number you are trying to reach is currently unavailable" this was the only response she was getting from last 4 hours and 36 minutes, and this time these words were lethal enough for her to control her tears to flow. "Why do you do this to me? Why?" She started to snivel. "No, I am not going to cry for him. Not now. Not ever. He's gone and now I'll have to subsist on my own", she sighed.

"But what will I do without him? He was the reason I was pertaining, he was the reason I evacuated smoking from my life, he was the reason I am who I am." she spoke to herself. He embraced a trash and adorned all that made her gnash. One could easily see her hands shuddering, eyes swelling, poignant lips, while she was trying to collect herself, collect herself from his reminiscences, from his touch, from his skin, from his feel, from him. Her bed was her refuge that night, she lobbed herself on her pillow. she cried until all her tears desiccated and her throat parched.

Her own little bubble seemed haunting to her now, the only light she could onlook out of her window was that of crescent moon. Moon without the stars. I guess even the stars were in blue that night, they'd hid themselves under the dark sky. The heart wreck caught even the stars in desolation. Meanwhile, she heard the door bell ringing but she ignored it. The person on the other side started banging the door faster, she stood up from her place to see who was there, now what she witnessed made her body numb. Her mind surrendered itself, her frailed body felt like as if the earth was swallowing her. Yes, it was him. She was descrying him standing in front of her. "Baby, why did you do this to me? Am I that easy to let go? Am I that easy to give up on?" She exclaimed in blubbing tone. She started puling a bit louder now. Trying to catch her breath and wiping her tears, she collected herself with all the little strength she had. She paced her foot towards her man, the man she lost a few hours ago. She sauntered closed to him. Placing her hand on his cheeks and and then over his neck. She held him tightly by his arms. She wanted to feel every bit, every inch of him. She placed her dry, blubbering lips on his forehead. His humming veins chilled her body and his touch broke her bones. Holding him tighter and towing him closer than ever before she wispered into his ears, "I'll not let you go this time. Even if you want to!"

"Even if I want to?" he said into her ears, dilating his big dark blue eyes.

"What do you mean baby? Are you going to leave me once again?" she asked. One could easily see tears in her eyes, but he couldn't.

"You'll have to live without me. Try to forget me. We can't be together now." he mumbled glancing at their favourite music cassette.

"So you are saying you are no longer in love with me, right? what about the promises of eternity we made?" she maffled and he ignored.

"You know what, we both will be destroyed if we'll try to take the things further" he took a long pause and sighed.

"You don't believe in us. You don't believe in me. How can you be so sure that things will go wrong? Did you feign it all, were you ever in love with me?" she wanted to say but the only thing that uttered from her mouth was "Yes, i guess your decision is right!" she knew she can't argue with him. She can't, even if she wants to!

He hugged her and moved towards the door. She couldn't even react to the episode, a numb and lost bod stood there. "He's gone." she told herself. Even the tears, the heart ache, the finicky brain left her alone that night. She wanted to express a lot, she wanted to say alot but she couldn't. Her unconscious body spurred her to sleep. A deep sleep for the first time in a while.

Next morning she woke up to a text from a man who used to be hers saying, "I am still in love you. No, I didn't feign anything. It was all real. It is all real. Goodbye. Take care."

she stared at herself looking in the mirror, caressing her hair and face, kissing her body with her eyes, and then she told herself, "Hey, you are so strong my darling. You have the blood of bear and the pneuma of the tiger, hunt back your power and win all the lost swedges. Cause you are all the glory!" A new day, a lost relationship, a new slant reverberate her into a totally different person.⁠⁠⁠⁠