L O S T

I've been searching for myself
I've been looking for words
I've been finding for the place I could fit in.
Now, I don't even know where I am
I feel like I've lost everything.

I haven't been myself lately.
I'm just another empty human with a lost soul
My eyes don't seem to sparkle anymore
My thoughts became louder than before
I'm lost and I don't know how to go back.

I've lost words to express what I feel.
No words would come out but those deep breaths and heavy sighs.
I can no longer put a stain on that blank paper.
It's like the ink in my pen won't just do its thing.
My hands won't move the way I want them to.

I don't feel at home in the place I once called home.
In a crowded room, I always find myself alone.
It just gets colder and lonelier all of a sudden.
No tears won't fall in these sad eyes of mine
No hint of pain nor joy inside my heart.

I've become numb and now, I'm so lost.
Where am I? Who am I? What am I?
When I look in the mirror, I see an empty me—
I'm lost and I'm afraid to take anymore steps.
I'm scared that I might get too far and no one would be able to find me.

But then, I realized...
It's okay to get lost for awhile.
I'll just accept the “me” now
And invent another words—
Or build my own place to call home.