Let me bring you back

Now as i started to pen our story, this black ink started to look still more darker. These words are not just words, these words are coming out from the vein of my heart, to reach your soul, to feed your heart, to bring you back again.

Am not a good writer. I will do a lot of grammar mistakes. But i won't care to pen my feelings for you. I won't care if i got negative comment also.

This is not just a story. This is our past, present, and future. Even in my lifetime after lifetime I WANT YOU. I want you as my life throughout LIFE. This is our story and am dedicating this to "US". Love you baby!! I Love You Ram!!!
Let me bring you back.

Right now i had put orange color nail polish, sitting in balcony, holding the black pen. My nail is shining, still more than before because of this sunlight.

I know you are very eager to read this story. So taking a long breath here am narrating
           "LET ME BRING YOU BACK"

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I passed out my engineering in July 2018, i attended many interviews sometimes got selected, other times got rejected.
i was very sacred to attend interview in my domain. Because i know am not good at coding. On October 1st 2018 started to work as HR. I couldn't able to sustain there. Work pressure was more. My favourite number is eleven. And from my side whom ever i had sent for interview eleven people got selected. But few joined later they left. My score was zero. I felt this job doesn't suit me. And the work environment was also not good. All were elder then me. Few were married girls.. and one was younger than me. Who were always interested in private talks. They talk the things which need not to be heard by a kid. I was sacred to talk with them. They came to me to talk, they asked me to talk. I always kept my mouth shut. Later they also felt that i was not normal.  Am kid. I don't want to mingle or hear those gossips. I just always stay away from them. They were also one of the reason why i left job within one and half months. On 22nd Nov 2018. I cried saying to my parents i can't i can't do this job. Am feeling very low. Work pressure is more.  They said okay.
In home typed my resignation letter and had sent to my team lead. Then i told over the call to azam sir. Am quitting job. Long back also i told him that am gonna quit job. He adviced me saying few motivational words and said office will be waiting for you like that. Now 2nd time I'm behaving like this. that time he advised me everywhere work pressure will be there. Office will be waiting for you like that. But this time when i said am quitting. He said your wish. He gave some motivational speech for my future. And ended the call saying all formalities will be done. Thank god i was Happy
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Later i started to search job in my domain. I was in depression where no one knows. Because of my past incidents in my life.
Actually it is a some other story. Soon in other piece of chapters i will attach.
// hope you are eager for that piece of story also.
After searching so many jobs, after walking in so many streets, i got job to work as a intern trainee. The place is very far from my town.
2 boys (lokesh and sai) 1 girl (vipula) along with boss and mini boss(boss's wife) started my career. I joined office on May 8th 2019. It was the first day of my job. All my colleague's  started to ask me to come for trip with them for Wonderla... which they preplanned long back gonna execute in coming weeks.
Actually am not interested in anything, am an introvert. When they approached me i said i need to ask my parents. Already i know the answer but still it was my first day. I tried my best to be nice with everyone. Later on that planned day also i didn't went with them. I was alone taking care of office stuffs.
later days rolled i was doing nothing there for almost 7 days. Coming at sharp 9 and leaving at 5 45. My full day process was to sit idol and study the book material which they provided.
Every time mini boss will come and go. Just to check me what am doing. I know, but still i didn't cared.
The suspense here was i was not interested to do this job also. On my first day when i received my offer letter. I thought i will be not able to travel this much. I can't do this. Unfortunately on my first day of my job Mom  went out off station. So i was left with none  who can support me. If i do some acting mom will feel and she will say okay don't want. But these acting and all will never work in front of my dad and sis. I was left with no choice. So i was just thinking for some ideas what reason i can bring to my dad. But i didn't get any lie any idea. I left office.. and reached hebbal. It was late already but i was like so today 1st day only if i reach home late means.. i thought dad will think about this. I stood in hebbal and ate masal puri to kill my time. I literally walked very slowly to bus stop and took bus and went home. Reached almost closer to 9clk.
Dad received my bag. Sis welcomed me. Mom  also on a call welcomed me home back.
They were happy seeing my face. I was worrying inside oh no!! what plan i processed it didn't worked. I thought if i come late, they will think about it. But they were smiling. Later i also faked a smile. And open my bag and gave offer letter in my dad hand and went to fresh up myself. When i came back with towel wiping my face.
Dad was holding the offer letter on the photo of god. I was like in full shock . gone case. Am done with this hell again in my life. As soon as he saw me i smiled. Then moved and told all the things what happened on my 1st day of job.
Later days rolled Mom also came back from outoffstation. I was in pain. I rarely hug everyone.  When am feeling low. I lay my head on laps of my mom or whoever sit next to me.
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I carried a broken heart in my life because of past. It was not a love failure story. It was a failure of my feelings. It was a pain of hurt where everyone will leave and go. Where everyone will hurt.
So when i joined my office my slogan was:
"Never ever like anyone, Never ever carry any feelings for anyone, Never ever mix your personal life with office life."  Yeah!! This was my slogan.
Days rolled, i was trained for 5days in CCNA. Then i started to Handel 2 batches.
Colleague's were helpful sometimes but other times they were irritating also.
I was supposed to stay in office from 9 am to 6 pm. I was supposed to travel long. So i was leaving office at 5 45. Mini boss observed this.
Later days exactly at 5 30 she comes to chat with me saying her story. Sometimes i listen other time i will keep watching the clock nodding my head as if am listening. With her sweet coating chat she tries to make me stay till 6pm. I was very cleaver. I kept alarm at 5 45. In the middle of our chat when alarm ringed. I will say directly to her that its time am gonna to leave.
Days rolled.
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My colorful story started after the mid of June.
It was a regular casual day. After handling my batch i went out of the lab to refresh myself.
When i entered the lab i saw a boy in blue jean shirt, with a very broad shoulder in a military haircut style. He was fallen very deep inside his laptop typing something. Behind him i stood stunt. I was observing the way he seated then i was observing his neck. suddenly he turned back and saw me. But he went carrying his laptop towards vipula to ask doubt. Then even i just moved and sat on my chair and continued to do my work. After reaching home also i was able to recollect each second how i met him. I didn't see his face. But i saw him from behind I don't know what feel it was. I didn't cared i slept. Day Ended.
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After that incident i didn't met him. May be he would have come and i was busy in my work and didn't cared who entered the lab and to whom my colleagues were handling classes.
The class where my boss handle carried a transparent glass. Where i can see him and he can see me. I always low my chair height so that i can hide from my boss.
Then after 3 to 4 days it happened again. When i went out of the lab for some work and when i came back. I saw that boy again. Again from behind. (The love behind him ) I slowly made my walk towards my chair. And again he carried his laptop in his hand but this time he sat next beside me. towards my right but bit far. I was like may be for his class with vipula he sat. It was a place where my colleague handle her class. I saw him typing something very deeply. Later i saw his long legs those finger nails were painted with mehndi red orange shade. Immediately i saw his hand, his fingers those nails were also painted. Then i was about to see his face thinking why he painted. Within fraction of seconds he turned his head towards me. I twinkled my eyes in fear that he caught me. Then i started to continue my work.
I was just thinking he is not a small boy or kid to paint. But then i remember the things which i do to my dad. Drawing on his hand, painting his nail. Drawing on his arm. Then i looked at that boys arm with smiling face. May be if i would have had mehndi i would have asked his arm.
Then vipula came and started to take class, i made my ears sharp. I tried to catch his voice. Though i was working i paid my full and full attention there.
Vipula also asked why you painted your nail. He said his mom painted. I smiled i was like so sweet of him. He gave hands to mom to paint. I felt the love which he had for his mother. Then i turned my face to look at him. Again i could able to see only his back.
Then i was busy into my work. His voice was very low, and yeah it was in sad tone. I don't why. I don't know what they were discussing.
After some time i saw vipula giving book material to him. And she said " you read this book, if you have any doubt ask me" like that.
He raised his voice. Yeah this time after so many long minutes i heard his voice.
He said : NO!!!! You read and tell me..
She again and again compelled him to read.
He said :NO!!
She asked why ??
He said: if i want to read the book and understand then why i am coming here ?
These words directly received by my ears.
I was literally laughing...
I saw vipula face it was mixed version of anger and dull.
She asked him again. Am here only know. You read if u have doubts anyhow am gonna explain.
He said : NO!!!
Again i was laughing laughing laughing. ..
She said: Now what i want to do ?
He said:  YOU only read and tell.
Then she started to read like News Paper.  I felt bad. And i felt bad that i couldn't able to see that boy reaction.
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//soon i will update.