Letter from me to your Friends

Please don't question my 'love' for him. I love him alright; it’s just that there is this one moment in a relationship that we need say 'enough already'. There are problems in a relationship that cannot be mend and all the possible ways to patch that certain problem is already been done and still nothing happened. So to further not hurt each other I decided to provoke him and ask the breaking point question “this doesn’t work between us anymore, let’s just beak up”

I don't regret what I had done but I know that what happened to us is partly my fault. I still love him, it is just that I am measuring and weighing where is our level of commitment right at this point of our relationship. But as a woman as we are what we think and feel right now may not be the same the next day. I already know that the moment I ask him the cliché question, I will lose him.

I am pretty much hurt to discover that his love for me is nothing compared to what I have been thinking because he didn't even bother pursuing me or save our relationship, instead he pushed me away, telling me that maybe there is still a better man for me and he thinks that it is not him. So what should I do?? Even he is already surrendering what we have by not asserting to be the right man for me. As a woman, I am hurt by his words. But I am still waiting for him to do something to mend our relationship because truly I still love him and still want to give a chance to what we have.

So, I am asking for all of you to also consider my point and my stand in our relationship. Don’t just judge me and cal me names or bully me for not sticking to our relationship. I am also hurting. It is not easy for me to let him go because I still love him. But I know that if we continue this, we will just going to drag each other to the lowest point where we will never going to get over with and later on totally hate each. 

---nineja---