Lift up your hands

Have you ever woke up one day feeling that you are tired of every expectation the world seeks in you?

I always feel it. It's hard to be a "panganay". There is this time that I need to look tough so that no one can tell that I'm too naive. Breadwinners are those who strive for their families up to the point that their body already gave up-but still they chose to keep their hands gripped on the edge of knife. The selfless sacrifice they do is not because they are born with it, but because they are left with no option but to surrender to the nature's calling of being a responsible one even at an early age.

I know I'm not a perfect daughter, sister, friend or lover. I made numerous mistakes all the time and I don't really care because it's who I am. But Godcares. Tears rolled down my cheeks yesterday when I attended the Holy mass because of the Gospel from the Book of Matthew. God knew what I'm going through and that was His answer- Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.²⁹ Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

I cried. I felt His deep love for me. He reminded me not to be anxious about things when I get tired of everything because He will always be there to tap my back and say, "Everything is going to be alright". These burdens that my heart carry will be taken by Him. When people will criticize me for not fulfilling my responsibilities as a breadwinner at times, He's there to recognize my achievements.

So I realized, even if I wake up feeling that the world looked down on me, I won't be even bothered. And why would I be? He already gave me rest. ❤