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I feel like drowning

Drowning in my own world, in my own thoughts, in my own feelings

I can't help myself, and no one is willing to reach out.

Why do we have to experience this kind of pain?

This kind of loneliness, this kind of sadness.

We go to places with lots of people, with lots of noise

Yet we find ourselves lonely,

The more they create noise, the more they laugh

The more you realize that you are alone.

And in that moment, tears starts to roll down your face.

You look like a crazy fool,

You want to stop it,

But the more you want to stop it, the more tears your eyes produced.

You look at the face of the people around you,

But only bitterness comes in,

Why are they happy?

What keeps them alive?

But then, you will realized that you should not be questioning about this

That you should ask yourself.

What is happening to me?

Where does the bitterness came from?

When all you want is to love and to be loved.

Yes, there you go.

I knew it!

This is all because of you!

Those who have rejected me!

What is wrong with me?

What is wrong with you?

I just want some attention.

Not all, just some.

But you continue rejecting me.

You are pushing me to the edge.

And what am I now?

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