Lost and found

I used to be afraid of everything, afraid what people might think, what they might talk behind my back. I tried to hide everything from people so that they'll never know, so that they'll never understand what really happened behind the eccentric picture that I portrayed in front of myself. Everyone saw what I wanted them to see and to some extend it hid the truth, but as we all know truth has a weird way of resurfacing. And it did, and when everything came out in the open it was nothing like I had expected. All the defence that I had built in front of me tumbled and they saw how twisted and destroyed I was. It was difficult, honestly it was. Living every moment imagining all the foul things being said about me, and the worst part, some of them were true. How do I justify myself? They were a web of lies which I made to hide myself. And when it was gone, I was left bare. But apart from this, it was deliverance. It was freedom from the past that I hated the most, freedom from the decisions that I regretted the most. But most importantly, it was a necessity! A necessity to change the course of my path. That was the first step to a lot of rights! The first step that got me to where I am now! I have so much to learn, I'm yet to grow, but those days were lessons learnt the tough way! I don't know how wise I've become! I don't know how right my choices are! But I very well know I'm not afraid anymore. In the end it's not what others think about you that matters, but what you think about yourself! That is what defines you and that helps you find a purpose.