Never in my life have I thought of falling in love.
"LOVE" this very word which I thought to have never exist.
I felt tickled when I saw girls crying over break ups and boys feeling depressed when they got dumped by their girls.....thought they were losers.
When I heard sad songs the very thought that came to my mind was "That's what you get for being a fool"
Childhood and then my schooling years just passed away without it.....no ....not even a shadow of it fell in my life. .......yes it's true I did have a crush.....but it was more of a benefit advantage business. ........I had never talked to my crush though we were on the same boat. ......I don't remember even a hi and a hello between us.......u must be thinking how then it's a benefit advantage business. ......yeah! !! I used to look at him through the corner of my eyes just to find him digging his nose inside the books .....seeing this I was boost up so even I studied hard .....time passed and thus was my schooling. .....and we fell apart.......neither I tried to have contacts with him or his friends......because I never fell in love with him ......my friends and his did tried to link us up but neither I nor he was ready for it......we were born in the same month just 2 days apart , were antisocial introverts so we never liked each other.....
Then time got carried away I went to college ........my first year went fine with making new friends and studying. ....2nd year ....yeah !!! This is when I met him" my first love" ....in a park ....started with a hi hello are you from dash dash dash....and we chit chatted. ... I never wanted to give him my no. But he was smart enough to get it out........then texting, talking on the phone for hours started........after one year on a valentine's day he proposed me .....told me his feelings about me.......I laughed at him .....told him " are you crazy? We are just friends. You talked to me that's why you think you loved me.........but I don't believe in this abstract"
"You don't have a heart" he replied ..........."come on ....heart is just a pumping organ how would I survived if I didn't have one" this was my childishness speaking.........even then we kept talking and then he asked to meet him up .....we had lunch together it was usual .......and then out of no where I found his lips over my mine ....oh damn you I had my first KISS .....he held my hands and kissed it ......I got terrified and ran away.......he apologised for his act and told me that his parents are searching for a suitable match for him and that he gave them my photos ....."what's your mom's response ???".........."she said you look good but she will agree only after you talk to your parents"
I had just started my career , my sister and my brother haven't married yet .how could I asked my parents for my marriage........... more over the idea of my NOT MARRYING for whole life didn't allow to digest it..........
He was tired of convincing me ....atlast he let go of me
Today even after so many years I can still feel his warm hands and the first kiss of my life ........yes so I think this is what you called "LOVE"- the abstract which I finally got to feel