Love her or lose her

Yes relationship is not easy. A time will come that you will become unsure. You will think twice if you want the commitment, or if you can handle it, if you're ready.

She might be okay with your unofficial relationship that's because she loves you, and she wants to be with you. And you tell her that you're just not ready, she's willing to wait. She loves spending time with you and maybe you do too. Some of her stuff is at your place, you sleep together, eat together. You act like couple but you're not.  She gets jealous when you flirt with other girls but there's nothing she can do, she doesn't have the right and it hurt her. She wants to be with you everyday but she can't, she know she can't demand something like that. But it's okay. She can handle it, she will choose to handle it because she's happy with the little things you can give her. 

As time is passing she's waiting for you. Waiting for you to be finally ready to give her what she deserve. Waiting for you to be ready for commitment for a relationship that doesn't make her think what she is. But you're taking too much time.

It will get complicated no matter what that's just how it works. A time will come that she will realize her worth. She will start demanding and you just can't give it. You can't give her the commitment that she needs, the official relationship that she wants.

The thing is, a woman wants that commitment she doesn't want to  be owned but not being labelled. And she will start to think if she will stay in the crappy relationship that you're giving her. You will try to make her stay, I know you will because you want her and maybe you loved her. And maybe she will still want to stay. 

Eveyday she wakes up asking her worth. The pain  will eat her alive. But a day will come that she will get up, get her stuff and walk away. Not because she doesn't love you anymore or she doesn't want you, or she doesn't want to stay. She just can't take the pain anymore, it broke her. 

Now you will wake up and not have her at your side anymore. You won't have to explain yourself anymore, there's no more fights, no more dramas. Will you miss her? Now will you give her the relationship that she deserve?

The thing is you can't keep something if you don't want to be kept. 

If you choose not to love her now, you can't choose to love her later. And you will lose her.