Loving You

Nobody say it was easy but still, I love you like how the mosquitoes at night risk their life just to get some food even if it's too dangerous. I know, it's kinda rare to compare my love into mosquitoes but yeah, I must admit. I love you a lot like that.

You are the middle of thorn and rainbows. Rain and thunders. Love and pain. And I happened to adore things in between. I never loved blood but yes, I happened to love taking risks.

So I take risk thinking that maybe there would be a happy ending. Just like what I red on books. Fantasies. Forgetting that what I've put on the table was my heart. And that it's too late to take it back now.

I love being your shoulder to cry on. The one wiping your tears. Telling you that it's gonna be alright. I feel like I was your angel in disguise. The blessing. Your precious treasure.

But I was mistaken.

Because you broke me...

Once. Twice. I can't exactly remember how many times til I came up with none. I lose all of me. I lost myself because I found you. You disappear holding the whole out of me and I was left with... Nothing at all. But your memories. Promises. Broken smiles.

And it tear me apart more. From a broken pieces to an exactly dust of the past. Like a trash on the floor being put on the trashbin. It's insulting and disgusting to be too desperate to stil hope for you to come back. Even if I know that you never will.

But you can't blame me for being like this. Because you know, we all love someone by heart. Not by mind. So I'm sorry for being stubborn enough to set aside my thoughts and still listen to the beat of my heart. It's cheesy to hear from me but honestly speaking.

I miss everything about you.