Lucid dreams

"Everybody has dreams. Fantasies. Just like me. Now, here is the difference between YOU and ME.

I said, " Just like me". If it had been you, the statement might have been, " Just like everyone else", perhaps. That is where I draw a clear line between followers and leaders.

Many a times, when there is stupid following behind celebrities, especially in the film industry, I had felt how dumb people are to follow people who are simply doing their job. It took a long way for me to realise that, these celebrities definitely possess something that draws immense attention. And while I think about that possession and how did they get that, I get back to my idea about dreaming. " That's a portion of my recent interview in JFW magazine. That almost summarises me, my life.

Welcome to the world of me, Ria.

I am a model and an actress. Currently doing three films, I am the busiest and top earning actress of the industry. My dates are filled for the next one year too. The amount of love and following I get from people, is unbelievable. It is my drug. It is just it, that keeps me going. Life is awesome.

Life is still awesome, but I am lying on a hospital bed right now. I couldnot phrase what is happening around me. All I remember is that I had fainted in the sets while rehearsing the dialogues. I am unable to open my eyes. But I am listening to all their conversations. It is still unclear. There is a lot of noise.

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I probably dozed off then. I woke up to find a middle aged man and a woman, awaiting for me to wake up, really worried. The lady is in tears. I am quite overwhelmed, but I'm still wondering who these people are and why did my manager let them in.

I manage to rise up and console her that I am well. Surprisingly, she ignored my responses and called the doctor instead. I am a little shocked. I look for my manager. I couldnot find him so I looked for my phone. I couldn't find it either. Now, I am quite irritated. I ask for my phone to the people standing beside me.

"Beta, you have to take rest. Please sleep. You can check your phone later. It is safe with me.", the man told me. The lady also repeated the same. I am annoyed and I raise my voice." I need my phone. Call my manager. Where is he?". I tried to walk to the door. They put me back to the bed forcefully. In the meantime, the doctors arrived.

I try to have a conversation with the doctors, but all he told me was " Ms.Ria, please take rest. You need to sleep. Lets look over these issues later, when you are fine." He injected something which made me drowsy. I slowly give up and close my eyes.

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"Ria! Ria!!! Can you hear me? Please wake up..Can you hear me Ria?...??", I heard this voice. It sounded familiar. Yes, it is the doctor's voice. I slowly open my eyes. I want to ask about all the mess happening around me. But their wide smiles stop me. The doctor, the middle aged man and woman, are anxiously smiling at me.He asks, "Ria, how are you feeling now? Better? Is you head aching?". I smile and say him that I am fine.

He then asks "Now, tell me who are you? Who are they?" pointing towards the lady and the man. I am baffled. Is he serious? Is he really asking me this question? I frown confusingly. Their smiles dropped dead. The lady starts crying loudly. " Is this what I had been waiting for, doctor?..I am done with this. Let us break the truth..Let's tell her the truth". She cries as loud as possible.The man tries to hold and console her desperately. The doctor's attempts also are going in vain.

I am utterly baffled. What is happening around me? I am unable to bear the noise. I shut my ears with my hands as tightly as possible. Tears started rolling down my eyes.

The room suddenly started becoming faint and unclear. I see the walls pushed forward and backwards. Like a hastily fixed jig-saw puzzle. The room and the people rotate upside down. The whole atmosphere became hollow and distant. I shut my eyes.

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I open my eyes. I am still in the hospital. I woke up to my parents awaiting for me to wake up, really worried.My mother is in tears. I am overwhelmed. I rise up and console her that I am well. She calls the doctor hastily instead. Meanwhile, she asks, " Beta Ria, do you know me? Who I am? Did you get your memories?".

I am quite baffled. I respond, " Haan Maa, What is this question? What are you talking about? What is it about memories? What is happening?". She gives a flood of happy expressions and hugs me tightly. "I am so happy beta. This is enough for me. I am happy that you came back to reality. That God, gave you back to me....My naughty little Ria is back....... Now, don't tell me that you are going to the film school again. Peacefully, complete your commerce and let's lead our lives peacefully, Beta"..she says and caresses my hair. My father passively nods at her statement as he feeds me with some porridge.

I nod and smile at them.

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