Messed Up

My mind plays tricks on me.

I wasn't able to identify the reality.

Can't focus on what's important.

Can't grasp what matters most.

I'm so naive.

Can't follow through.

I found myself regretting

what I just said.

Blurting out lies because of anger.

Walking away when rejected.

Turning people down

Just because I feel miserable.

The mess I made

is undeniably huge.

Like an aftermath

of an unpredictable storm.

There's only one

who can fix me up

and turn me around

but he's out of reach.

So bear with me please

even if my words

pierces your bones

and kills your pride.

It may not be an excuse

acceptable enough,

but at least let me

wait for him to come.