Still hope remains. When you know, everything is gone, feelings can’t be generated, someone does not care anymore, someone no more replies, someone does not call! Still, deep down the heart, you feel as if everything will be fine someday.
“Shame on you and your thinking!” This was her last sentence. She was acting as if I had done any mistake by loving her. Maybe, I over-thought, over-loved. That was the mistake. Like a deeply cooled and frozen lake in the Himalayas, containing enormous water inside, ready to burst, I stood quiet and frozen! Containing enormous feelings inside, ready to burst into the tears. She never loved, I know. Like someone said “You can’t just pull somebody into your life just because you want to bring them! May be if you have power, you can pull the body, but can’t pull the feelings, can’t make someone feel the same way that you feel!
So she went, fast and rude! No hard feelings I had! Nothing personal! Nothing impersonal! Controlling emotions, hiding the feelings! I kept quiet. Eyes wanted to spread the tears, heart wanted to rinse in sorrow, but mind wanted to recall the memories with her! Still! Still there was hope! Still there was a slight bright light in the heart that she will someday accept the feelings! The way she had gone was unusual. Heart accepted, feelings again grew.
I went after two weeks of continuous thoughts, cries and emotions! Before her! Again, to convey more love towards her. And there she was! Smiling and happy! I also felt happy to see her smile with a notice of me being forgiven. But, there she was! Ready with the card of her marriage!
Ok let’s wrap it off! It’s her 3rd marriage anniversary here and I am here still writing about her in the midnight. Deep feelings, beautiful her.