Nope. I am not saying that nothinghappened. I am not saying that we need to pretend that nothing has happened because we all know that something pretty bad had happened. But we don't have to pretend that it wasn't there because baby I am telling you, it's going to remain there for few years. I don't forget events easily. I remember details vividly. But I am also not saying that I won't forget it. I just need time to heal my wounds and I will be okay again.
I know that truth prevails. We can't hide from that shouting fact. We've been damaged , we can't deny that. It was carved to our bones, especially mine. But don't worry, I don't put all the blame on you. I have my own sins too. I am not saying no to that discussion. I know that I did something wrong too. And I am working to make peace with myself. I am working on forgiving myself with my shortcomings too. I am working on getting myself better. I hope you do the same.
We aren't the same anymore. We know that.But that doesn't mean that we have to let go of the things that made us who we are today. Remember that pain is experience . And experience is the best lesson that we can take in life. Remember that every failure means a ladder to do better. Remember that every pain molds us to be a better version of ourselves. Remember that. I am not saying that you have to be perfect. No one is. Even me, I am not. I have my flaws all over my body. I have these scars marked all over me serving a very good example of my darkest days. But I am not afraid to show it to the world because without these stories, I am nothing today.
I've lost too many good people in my life. I've failed too many attempts in my pursuit of happiness. I've hurt too many humans and I've broke too many hearts because of my big ego but I am never ashamed of my decisions. It takes me a lot of courage to dwell with my own mistakes. I am not a very apologitic person but I am learning how to say sorry because I know that it won't kill me to do so.
I've let them dragged me down and I let them disrespect me and betrayed me multiple times not because I am weak but more of, I want them to understand that making mistakes is fine. That making impossible things possible is really not impossible. I know that life is a gamble. You have to be wise to take your own dice and keep it rolling. I own my dice and keep it rolling with my own rules and terms. I am not making any excuses. I am just strong enough to carry my own burden.
I let people go with reasons. I am no longer into sweets words and actions. I am not into fake people and relationships anymore.I am getting a better life so hope everyone is doing the same. I love myself more than anybody else so I hope everyone is feeling the same. Because it won't kill you to be that Miss Independent.