Moving On

Aeron POV

Another day again that I won't see her, isang araw na naman ang lumipas na ako'y mangungilala sa kanya. Walang masayang mukha ang bubungad sa'kin, walang yakap na yayakap sa'kin.

"Aeron, kumain ka na," sigaw ni mama mula sa unang palapag ng bahay namin.

"Opo," sagot ko at bumaba na para kumain.

"Anak? Ang tamlay mo na naman, ano bang nangyayari sa'yo?"

"Wala po, wag niyo akong intindihin."

"Pero nak, alam kong may mali sa'yo."

"Alam niyo naman pala nagtanong pa kayo. Psh," sagot ko at kumain nalang ng tahimik. Kagamitan lang sa pag-kain ang maririnig mo kaya masasabi kong mabibingi ka sa sobrang tahimik.

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Naglalakad ako rito sa park, mag-isa. Iniisip "siya" sino?

Si Rose, girlfri---- ex ko. First love, first crush, lahat na ata ng first ko na sa kanya. Kaso.... we broke up, akala ko kasi siya ang Maria Clara na baliw sa Harry potter pero hindi, siya ang girlfriend ng lahat. Alam mo yun? 2 years.... 2 years na nasayang dahil sa kagagawan niya.

"Kuya, nahulog niyo po." kaya napatingin ako sa likod, pagkaharap ko, nagulat ako d-d-dah----

"Aeron, ikaw pala yan." sabi niya at ngumiti.

"How can you manage to smile even though it hurts?" I whispered.

"Ha?"

"Wala. Aalis na ako," sabi ko at kinuha ang panyo ko.

"Bastos," bulong niya pero narinig ko.

WAHHHHHHH SI AERON MARK YUN HINDI BAA!?!?!

WAHHHH OO NGA!

AKIN KA NALANG!

"Sorry, may nagmamay-ari na ng puso ko." sabi ko at naglakad palayo sa park na 'yon.

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Nasa kwarto na ako, looking on my cellphone's wallpaper. Rose, bakit mo kasi ako niloko? Edi sana.. sana masaya pa tayo. Sana tayo pa rin. Sana... puros sana!

"Alam mo nak, I'm your mom, but I can be your bestfriend too." napatingin ako sa side ko dahil nandito si mama.

"M-m-ma..." at tinago ang cellphone ko.

"Hindi mo naman kailangan itago nak eh, kasi alam ko.... kahit hindi mo sabihin, masakit." sabi ni mama at niyakap ako.

"Ma, ang sakit eh. 2 years, 2 years ma!" sabi ko at napahagulgol ng iyak sa balikat niya.

"Anak, always remember na nandito ako para sa'yo, kami ng papa mo kahit nasa ibang bansa siya."

"M-m-ma, thank you." at kumalas ng yakap

Pinunasan niya ang mga luha ko at....

"Bestfriend mo din ako nak, tandaan mo yan." sabi niya at tinuro pa ang dibdib ko, heart actually.

"Opo ma, I promise."

"Iwan na kita nak."

"Opo ma, sorry kanina."

"Ayos lang, I understand. Nga pala nak." at kinuha ang cellphone niya.

"Pakinggan mo ito." tuloy niya at nag-smile. Then she left me, and her cellphone.

"Moving on by Toya." basa ko.

Just getting used to waking up everyday

Not seeing your face

I just began to stop setting your place

And I stop longing for your warm embrace

And it was God that made me able

To finally sleep at night

Though you're not by my side

Finally I don't hardly cry

See right when I start letting go

Somebody wants to let me know

Can they take your place

No they can't fill your space

No.

I smiled bitterly, tamang-tama ang kanta para sa'kin.

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life.

I wanna move on, yes I want. Kaso Rose hindi ko kaya.

I finally put your cloths away

You know the ones you wore the day

That you were taken away from me

I just began to stop wearing my ring

And I finally stop playin' our song

When I realized I was dancin' alone and

Finally God gave me strength

To go on and breath again

See right when I start letting go

Somebody wants to let me know

Can they take your place

No they can't fill your space

No.

Napatawa ako, yes, tinapon ko yung mga damit na binigay niya, sumasayaw ng mag-isa ini-imagine na kasama ko siya, inalis ang infinity ring na ibinili niya.

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

God knows it's time for me to move on

I want to feel alive again

I want to be in love again

And no matter how hard I try

I can't erase you from my mind

And I gotta find somebody new

But I just can't give over you

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life.

Tamang-tama ang kanta para sakin, ang komplikado!!

Ting, Ting.

Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko at pumunta sa twitter.

"I can be your bestfriend too, son." post ni mama.

At may picture pa kaming dalawa, na sobrang saya.

I guess she's using the laptop.

Nag-post rin ako.

"Thanks ma, pa for all the sacrifices. I love you both, thank you."

At picture naming pamilya.

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Birthday ko ngayon, konti lang ang bisita dahil hindi naman marami ang mga kamag-anak nina mama at papa.

"Hi tita!!!" napatingin ako....

"R-r-r-rose." I whispered. Pero wala yung kabog ng dibdib ko, wala talaga.

"Anak, meet Jenie, kamukha niya si Rose but she's kind." pakilala ni mama.

"Hi Aeron! Happy Birthday!" masayang sabi niya.

"T-t-thank you." I said and walk away. Kaya pala wala akong maramdaman kasi hindi siya si Rose, haysss.

Pumunta ako sa may swing namin at......

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life.

Kinanta ko ang chorus ng moving on.

Rose, kung nasaan ka man ngayon, I love you. Kahit sinaktan mo ako, hindi pa rin mawawala ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo.

Kasi diba pag-nagmahal tatanggapin mo lahat ng pagkakamali niya? Kay Jen... I won't forget you, nasa puso kita......palagi...

"At forever."

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