My Apology

I'm sorry it took me so long, that you were already broken when I found you. I'm sorry you fell in love with people who were keeping you from meeting the right person; the one that would love you just as much, who would never try to get away, only try to get closer. I am sorry that you carried the weight of someone who didnt even deserve to touch you. I am sorry you had to kill the best parts of yourself just to give life to people who would never bruise themselves trying to save you. I am sorry they made you feel like a song worth skipping, a song they never listened to. I am sorry that nothing echoed back when you shouted, "I love you." I am sorry you gave the remaining pieces to someone who failed to reciprocate everything you did. I am sorry you heard alot of excuses of why they couldn't keep you, and why they couldn't stay. I am sorry you had to apologize for their mistakes. My darling... they lied you were worth it... you were more than enough. You were as perfect as you could be, and they overlooked you. I'm so sorry you found a home, inside a heart where you were never welcomed. I'm sorry that your heart was kept and used, at their convenience. You were put on a shelf like a book, only to be read when they wanted someone who would show the affection they needed. I'm sorry you were lost in a fairy tale love story that was never meant to have a happy ending. I am so sorry for the fact that you alone were clinching to a love that was one sided. You gave so much of yourself and your heart, only to get nothing back for that I'm sorry. I am sorry they made you feel like you were never enough. Like you had nothing to offer them. They were blind my love. They didn't see who you really were.
If I had just found you sooner before you were broken, I could've saved you, I could've been your last and final love.
It's hard to see you empty, when I listen to you tell your stories, I can see you used to have the whole universe inside of you.
You shouldn't have had to drown yourself in the pain they caused you from cheating and lying. For all this they did, I am sorry you went through.
But after reading this do you realize, this is exactly how you make me feel. What did I do to deserve to be put on hold from someone I love so much? What did I do so wrong that I'm an option and not the choice? I would wait a lifetime for you but this... this isn't fair. I know I want to be with you. But I also know, you really don't want to be with me. It's obvious to me now. You said you were broken. And in trying to heal you, I broke myself. That's not how its supposed to work. But, I want you to know this, I would break my own heart over and over, just to save yours.
Know that I love you.
Know that I always have.
Know that I always will.