My last letter

Life is the most unpredictable game. And I've learned it the hard way. When you feel everything around you is just how it should be and just how its supposed to be, life gets down to seeking attention. Shows its not really you who decides how its supposed to be.
But then, it ain't really as cruel. People get success, money, fame, sex and sometimes, just sometimes, love.
I got it in you. I got what actually being loved is. I could feel it. I could know you'd never really be the one I'd catch making out with someone after telling me you're in a meeting. I knew you'd never do that. Because you made me feel like this beautiful girl who has a guy right next to her all the time no matter what. I remember that one time when I had those problems about you at my home and then that night you said "I'm here. Right here. I'm not going. Anywhere. Stop crying. Common, stop crying first. I'm right here baby.". That was by far the best thing I had felt. You made me get into the fact that you're with me. And that's what makes me love you. You're such a true man!
You still can me smile. :)
And then, things went down the line, messed up, hurt, and eventually ended. I know it was just as hard for you too. I know. And I know I've been kinda deepening those wounds with whatever I do. But I hope you know that's not the intent. But whatever. You're scared you say. I don't what scares you. But I'm sure its a huge thing. Because you're one person of strength that knows no limits. The thing is, there's gonna come around some EXTRAVAGANTLY lucky girl someday who can actually set all of this fear aside and make you love her. I know she's gonna come around. And when that happens, I really want you to be happy. And when that happens, I promise I'm gonna step out of your life forever. And till the time she doesn't turn up, I'm gonna be here trying hard to get you back.
You know, when you compare what we had with with what I had with my ex, it sucks. Its like you're stabbing me right in the heart. He was a no one and you, my love were my everything. Get that clear. I got over him doesn't mean I can get over you too.
And you know what. The more I speak to guys, the more I wanna be with you. Because no one can do what you did.
Uuurgh. You still can make me cry. :'(
You're talented buddy. And very handsome. And now that you're turning hot, I'm sure I'll be having to move away real quick 'cause she's gonna be here anytime. Your girl.
And writing this breaks me. But well, that's my bitter truth. These were a few things I really wanted you to know.
Now, I'm not getting this topic up. I guess. I'm gonna try. Or, you always have the option to block me of course.

And, we didn't speak ever after.