When I was a kid, I saw kids playing outside and I thought that maybe, I'm
different. That maybe, from the very start, I'm already alone. But then my mom hugged me and told me that I will never be alone, I'm just thinking that I am.
Slowly, I noticed something. That I am, lonely. I grew up trying to make friends but they are the ones that avoided me.
I tried to reach out but I just can't, they're too far. My mom once told me that I'm not just doing my best.
And so I did try to do my best. I tried to blend in but I just can't. I just don't fit in. My mom once told me that if that is the case, then maybe, the problem is really me.
Mom, why is it that slowly, whenever I grow up, your words are changing? Just how I changed just to fit in because you said so.
You said that I'm over reacting but mom I don't. It's just the whole truth.
You told me that I'm imagining things on a whole new level but mom I don't. I'm really lonely inside and out.
You told me that I'm being insecure we yes I am. You didn't show me how to be contented with just having myself.
Mom you told me that I'm just sad but I'm not. I'm dpressed and anxiety is killing me.
Mom you told me that you're here for me but why didn't I hear any single word from you about me not being lonely because you're there for me?
Mom, I don't need thousands of friends or a couple of them. I need you