MY TRANSPARENT LOVE BY SWETA DATTA

This story is not for anyone or about someone; it is just to say that accepting someone the way they are is not a crime. Society, natural pattern are just some words to scare us; it’s all about your mentality and you who drives the think and above all this land is for all in which some are special and some are velvety special. No one is waiting for someone’s acceptance; it’s all about respecting one’s pure soul who is also created by God only.    


Present days:
It was a special meeting, a meeting where two strangers were allowed to live a long life together almost an adventure. Yes it’s an arranged marriage meeting a search engine to find perfect life partner and of course more than perfectly bride and groom for respective families to show off in front of the relatives.
Parents were talking exchanging their children bio-data containing educational qualification, job, company name and body part details (don’t get it wrong) talking about height, weight, blood group and many more (the list is too damn big). After getting satisfactory information the boy and girl allowed to spend 5 min to spend together (actually to decide the next step) after all they belong to the modern family. It’s almost like family is having love at first side for the bride and the groom but no vibes from “the would be” bride & groom.
“So I think we should give them some time to talk to each other, I hope Gupta Ji you’ll not mind.” Both are highly educated, successful in life one didn’t find the love and other one never tried so parents are helping them to find their love. Shri an economist, MBA degree holder works in a prestigious post for a well-known company. Debolinaa a professor and also perusing her Ph.D. for further good options.
It was awkward for them to start talking or asking still asked each other some regular stuffs then to few things from past. After 10-15 min she literally ran to hall and declared “I can’t marry Shri, I’m sorry. I’m sure you know the reason uncle, please leave.” Her parents were in shock and his parents were embarrassed with the situation. After they left Debolinaa was asked what was wrong, did he did something and when she told them what happened they did only one thing “thank you God for saving our daughter.” So what was the conversation this is what happened within 15 min (really it was a life time decision and few second to judge someone to curse forever).
Shri “nice room… wow you have lovely collection of lipsticks, so many nail paints I love this color. Girls do have so many stuffs this is adorable. I hope you will carry them all?”
Debolinaa “you like makeups?”
Shri “like! Oh I love them… hey I will help you in wearing makeups it will be fun…I used to do it when I was small used to feel good when called as pretty girl but now…”
Debolinaa in confusion “ah…wh…what are you talking about?”
Shri get his sense back and recognized that he said something that he shouldn’t so he added “i-I think we should go now”
Debolinaa “just clarify the confusion right here; I want to know why you say so…loved to be called a pretty girl?”
Shri “ok I think I should be honest to you as we need to spend life together. Yes I like to be girl, I love wearing makeup, and I wish I was a girl having long hair, having beautiful dresses. I love that sound when someone calls me girl unknowingly. Though I have that typical body part that signifies I’m a boy but my soul, heart and I know that I’m…girl”
Debolinaa “it means in short y…you are a Trans…transgender!”
Shri “that’s may be for you but for me I’m…” not letting him complete his line she comes out from that place and what happened everyone whiteness.
No phone calls from them came to insult as shri’s family thought of. But they were disgusted with what Shri did.
His mother “why are you doing this to us. Please consider what you are, you are a boy nothing else…are you listening?”
Shri “yes I’m listening but can you hear me? This is not me can’t keep myself hidden anymore and I don’t think what I did was wrong I told her the truth which she must know instead of tagging us as fake later on.”
Mother “I guess that would be more acceptable than accepting you like this, a boy who thinks and considers himself as a girl…disgusting.”
He leaves to his room.
His father “calm down give him some time, you can’t talk to him like this. We need to make him understand please.”
Mother “I can’t handle this anymore I’m his mother do have any idea what I’m going through. No problem if he considers me as worst mother I won’t mind, I’m disgusted.”
Father “I’m also going through the same roller coaster…”  
That day became ever worst for them but had a hope that things will be in order, they will get the hope shining one day. 

After few days:
Shri was checking his mail and a mail caught his attention that was random mail from a matrimonial site offering to open an account to find perfect partner. He opens the site takes a look on some girls, boys profiles felt disgusting and closed the browser but something blink to his brain opens it again clicks on the login button creates a profile (original one) which says he is a transgender but didn’t hit the submit button, he refreshed the page to fill up the blanks again and this time he signed up differently and uploaded a picture. The notification popped up “successfully registered. Find your partner now.”
He signed up as a girl and the picture was of him (and of no one else’s) makeup like girl and dressed up as a girl only and who clicked the picture? Well he did.
He was actually feeling good, happy and the he grabbed one of his childhood album. He was in his mother’s saree, salware, in a bridal look and suddenly the chat sound a request from a profile handler. He replied but after talking for 5 min it was clear that person is not suitable and a desperate kind of person so he ignored and blocked him. This went for 3 days and no one from his family were aware of this.
That night finally shows some hope:
He was about to delete that account as how many he had been interacted with are awesomely disgusting and doesn’t know how to talk with females. An then a profile sends a request so that they can chat, he was about to dismiss but thought of stalking the profile for once and the summary of the profile is like this.
Name: Prathemesh ray
Age: 28
Height: 5’8’’
Weight: 78
Education: B.Tech in mechanical
Company: L & T
He had uploaded some 8 pictures Shri gone through those and somewhere his index finger leads his brain to click on to the accept button. After an hour a “hi” and “thank you” popped up with a smiley emoji. Shri murmured “that’s cute.” And the chatting takes its way may be for something awesome to be happened.
They chatted for 6 months and what Shri found in Prathemesh that he was a complete gentle person. They talked about their childhood, schooling, college life, about their crush and how was their day in office, plans for the weekends and many more but he never asked Shri about city she (he) lives not even asked for phone number and meeting was far most question, so a complete gentle person who knows how to respect someone and makes them feel good about.
Shri took the initiate “it’s been 6 months we are talking but still don’t know which city we belong to.”
Prathemesh “I haven’t? I thought I told you. Well I’m from pune and also posted here.”
Shri “what really I’m from pune too and I’m also posted here only.”
Prathemesh “wow that’s great.”
He was typing something but deleted that and Prathemesh just said “so…”
Shri “so…we can share our number??”
Minutes of silence then Shri “hey relax…I was just joking, don’t think that I’m being desperate or something…”
Prathemesh “8160985014…I was typing my number before then deleted thought you’ll consider me as desperate but I’m glad you thought about my idea. We are having same mind” and attached an eye blinking emoji.

Your voice mesmerized me please keep talking:
That night was magnifying Prathemesh’s number was flashing on screen Shri was almost collapsed with excitement and couldn’t receive the call, he called for 6 times and finally Shri picked it up. Shri’s whole body felt an electrifying vibration just by hearing his “hello”. Every day, night was platinum for Shri; he was happy, he had spring to his feet and seeing him like this charming, smiling his parents were too happy but they were unaware of his happiness.
It was Prathemesh’s birth day, Shri asked “so birth day boy what you want as gift…you can demand anything.”
Prathemesh “whatever I demand? That’s something…are you sure?”
Shri “I’m damn sure, tell me what you want”
Prathemesh “I want you…I want to meet you, I mean if you are comfortable then only.”
Shri got trapped somewhere and went completely silent.
Prathemesh “hello…hello….you there…hey Shri…look I’m sorry for this stupid demand, I’m really sorry we will meet when you will…”
Not letting him complete his line Shri said “I was thinking about what I should ware and where we can meet.”
Prathemesh “are you serious! You gave me an attack…well you decide and ware whatever you want to as you’ll be beautiful to me in any warring as you have a gorgeous heart.”

The pumped up phone chatting love romance finally to take a step forward:

The date was fixed so that the place to make the meeting memorable. Shri was tensed about how he’ll manage to go out but dressing up like the way he wants to. So he made the plan like “mom I have my meeting today so will leave early and don’t wait for me.”
Mom “but its Sunday!”
Shri “true and one more truth is it’s an IT sector” he smiled and greets parents. So next destination is a mall where he picked up a dress like casually corporate type and yes he was looking exactly how he wanted and he murmured “God I wish I was a girl. But never mind as from today everything will be the way I want it to be.”

The first time they locked their eyes and just couldn’t take them off:

Shri says hi to him but no responds from that side as he was busy in looking at someone who was looking immensely beautiful and while getting his sense back he stammered to greet Shri.                           
It wasn’t awkward it was warm and welcoming feel that defines that finally the search ends here right to this person. The first meeting was like ‘please time don’t pass too faster be slower today for us’ but they had to say bye so that they can make another exotic meet very soon, it was very obvious that they had their best time together and takes a leave.  

It’s time to take up the next level:
They met and this time Prathemesh has something really important to say, he proposed Shri officially and as time fly their relation aged to 2 years.
Must be thinking if it’s 2 years of relationship then how come Prathemesh never came to know about Shri? Well some people so that Prathemesh do believes in ‘saving moments’ and being in limit, as every ‘thing’ has its own set stage and time which must be pour at that time only. But it doesn’t mean that they never had a moment. Well they had being in limit they shared the most passionate ‘forever loving kiss’ out of emotion Prathemesh holds Shri’s face said “please marry me. Every second is year for me. I really do love you Shri.” He hugged her (him) and added “you tell me when I can talk to our parents.” and this moment gave Shri to think too damn hard about what to do next i.e. how to tell him the truth. But maybe Shri was confident about Prathemesh that he’ll accept him the he is. Shri neither denied nor said anything to Prathemesh about meeting parents and maybe Prathemesh took that silence as yes.

Truth of or about life time:
Prathemesh told about his relationship with Shri to his family and they agreed to meet them. So to surprise Shri he makes a plan to meet her (his) family.
Knock on door Shri’s father opened it he saw three faces one of them greets him “hello sir I’m Prathemesh Ray and my parents.”
His father added “actually we came to talk about Prathemesh and Shri.”
This shocked him like anything but he greet them to come in and also apologies for making them stand out for this long.
Prathemesh “I’m sorry for coming like this without informing.”
Shri’s father “Shri doesn’t…”
Prathemesh “yeah I know I haven’t informed her and I think she haven’t told you about me yet. I don’t know how she’s gonna react.”
Prathemesh’s father “we also had no idea and suddenly he said he want to get married have found someone.”
Prathemesh tells them how they met through that matrimonial site and that they are dating for almost 2 years. And then Shri enters seeing Prathemesh sitting took his half world taken away. Shri’s father points him and said “that’s Shri my son.” This statement gave Prathemesh and his family a big shock which was unexplainable. Shri’s father slapped him “shame on you. How can you play with someone’s emotion…this time you went too far Shri…” he folded his hands and said them “all I can do is ask for apology and Prathemesh I can’t repay or rebuild anything for you but you can punish him and us for playing with your life.”
Heartbroken Prathemesh finds the way out from that place when Shri “I was about to tell you but I was waiting for the right time but…”
Prathemesh didn’t yelled just said “this is the right time to tell you that anyway I wouldn’t accept you the way you are as I can’t carry the burden of shame for my entire life, I’m not that strong like your parents or an open minded person. Anyway I had to tell you sorry so I’m sorry.” He left
Shri felt like getting insulted would have been more acceptable than the lines he heard from Prathemesh and all he could do was cursing god.
Still he tried to contact Prathemesh but no use.
The note:
After 2 days, knock on door he felt it could be Prathemesh. Shri’s mother opened the door and it wasn’t him it was police at door. Police showed him a note actually a suicide note that claims nothing but lose of one only son Prathemesh’s family filed fraud case against Shri. Soon this story became the biggest scoop for the newspaper companies and T.V channels, some took out the rally (not in support of Shri but named as so) for equality which they tagged as justice, some came up with psychologist analyzing a lot of things that are not related to the real norms.
The court says a lot of thing which were defiantly against of Shri. He was asked to give his clarification all he said was “can I keep that note with me or a copy of it.”
No matter what he did still parents will give everything to take their child back from dark to light his mother said while he was taking to the jail “Shri don’t worry we’ll take you out from there no matter what we need to do.”
Shri “I know maa but I deserve this punishment.”
He was given a copy of the note which doesn’t weak him made him bold and tough. Every time he reads it and every time will murmur “how can you love me so much but your wait will be shortening very soon…”
Things Prathemesh wrote in the note
“I fall in love with a person who is a genderless. My incapability is that I can’t accept that person so using some negative words to console myself. A fake, fraud quoting self as human took my heart how can i live? So leaving this world, as you are happening impossible to me. A biggest impossible which can’t be transformed to any possibilities as I’m not that broad minded person. I can’t wish for your happiness as I don’t deserve this to do. I have ruined my world. Can’t accept you for what you are… really can’t…I’m sorry.”

To start in a new way:
After 4 years he was set free as Prathemesh’s family withdraw the case. His parents came to receive him, were happy to see him no matter what he is all matters is that’s their child.           
His parents gladly accept him and asked him to start a life newly and if wants it could be a new place too and in reply all he said just “thanks.”
He locked himself in his room but did nothing to harm himself. He spends his days with family.

The heart breaking mystery:
One day in the morning his mother noticed the room door was unlocked, she called out his name but got no answer which leads her to tension zone. They searched the whole house but can’t find him and then something caught up their attention, it was a bunch of pages with the note wrote by Prathemesh. They rushed to find him.
Those pages are his life experiences all the best bad moments he faced since childhood and how it makes him feel ashamed of being the child who’s not likely to be normal or accepted normally to the world. A description how he used to dress up like girl in childhood and everyone would enjoy it but later that became the major issue to the family. How once in college he got bullied by fellow friends for accidently (mostly intentionally) wearing a jacket like girls and how ‘don’t behave like a girl’ or ‘you are such a girly person’ are used by others for him (mostly used as an abuse only) and that leads him to be isolated from everywhere as he was “different”.
He wrote that not to become famous but to put his life into some signified sentences, words, lines by bunching up all the alphabets together just say “this is who I’m”.
After 5 days his family got his body as he jumped into the deep ocean.
It wasn’t suicide it’s to start a new life from the beginning to full fill the parameter of becoming a normal person as per the society and the nature to the next birth where everyone with whom he’ll be in love with will gladly accept for being what he is.

The book got published almost everyone had tears in their eyes and the society which is broadly connected with a virtual connection i.e. internet, that world went viral with this ‘motivational quote’ ignited with the name Shri who’s a human more than a genderless, medically defined body who is unaccepted to the society as it’s a force against the natural law.

“Everyone is allowed to love. No matter if they are genderless above all they are human; created by God naturally who’s having a heart which beats like every ‘single socially normal people’…”    
                                                                                                                A quote by Shri (human by God’s law)