Not a fan

Let's start with who I am. 

I came from an average family and this is my story. This has nothing to do with the art of writing. I am just totally expressing my thoughts in here. I just would like the majority of the society to know. I'm not really the looser type but I think I am different from my circle of friends. I just don't want to conform or  maybe I just can't afford their lifestyle. 

With all the trends today, I just can't see myself going with the flow. Movies, series, and out-of-the-country stuffs, milk teas - these are all the millennials are so into now. I just realise that why are these people so addicted? I admit for one thing that I love Kdrama but I won't spend for it. I am just watching to kill the boredom, not because I am a total fan. I don't really have to memorize the names of the leads. I just can't.

I tried to fit in - like for example, buying milk tea. The lines are really long. Yes, that was delicious but for me to have it daily is a waste of money. That's 100 pesos already and I could have bought a decent meal for that. 

Game of thrones - God, I tried to watch it to relate but then I got bored and this is not my thing and then I stop watching. I hate how other people say, I miss half of my life because I didn't watch this like fuck off. You think you are cool because you watch that? NO! I hate to break it to you but that's bullshit.

Avengers, yeah2x still not a fan. I wouldn't watch it on movie theatres. Haha! Sorry, would not spend money for that because I could watch it later for free and that is the same story. I don't care about spoilers either.

What I am jealous the most is travelling. I want to be in different places. Not to brag, I'm an engineer and unmarried and I should have been enjoying my youth and salary to things that would make me happy. But I'm dragged by responsibilities. I'm sort of like the breadwinner of the family. But no matter how unfair life is, I just can't cry and be a looser. My mother is a leech and my father is too kind to lend money to selfish people. I love them both but sometimes its hard. 

I have been working for 5 years. And  what have I earned? Do I have savings? No. Am I living life extravagantly? No. Where did all my years go? 

"Take easy on life. Breath. It isn't so bad." These are the words I tell myself. I can't wallow in depression. I can't afford it.