Nothin'

Now, the coffee doesn’t taste bitter or the chocolates, pale. Now, the rain doesn’t bring along with it the remainder of my tears, nor does the sun being back memories of a heart burning in pain and solitude. 

It’s been quite some time since you spoke to me; quite some time since I heard my name wrapped up in your velvet voice, cupped with affection. Now, the ringing of your voice in my mind has stopped.

It’s been some months since you held my hand and walked down the pavements; some months since I heard you talk about how much you liked the new Chain Smokers song. Now, the playlist in my phone doesn’t contain your favourites.

It’s been years since you confessed your love for me; years since I believed in every word you said and promise you made. Now, the promises seem devoid of sincerity and truth.

It’s been forever. Or maybe it seems like forever, for I’ve become immune; immune to the memories. 

Yet, there’s this excruciating pain, a pain that resides deep down somewhere in my soul, a pain that never fails to make me breathless. The pain of having lost; the pain of losing myself in course of loving you. 

Now, the coffee doesn’t taste pale or the chocolates, bitter. I feel a sense of ‘nothingness’.

@Aditi