When you think of me,
Maybe someday, sometime,
Can you think of me fondly,
and not of our fights?
Can you remember the good times we spent?
Shared laughs, the times we didn't pretend,
Shared sorrows and dreams and fantasy,
When we were each other's ecstacy..
Can you forget my angry words,
My ugly face, my verbal turds,
Just for that moment, just for that while,
Can you close your beautiful eyes and smile?
Was I so terrible all the time?
Worst of the worst so I'm first in the line,
Of Hell, because that's where I plan to go,
Had been searching for a home and now I know,
Why nowhere I felt peace and calm,
Why no one could heal me, why there was no balm..
You all are too - too good to be true,
I always saw red, you always saw blue,
Black sheep of the family who could never learn,
Who could never love, who could never earn.
Do I deserve to be remembered even for a second?
Probably not, that's wishful thinking I reckoned,
Don't bring me flowers if you visit my grave,
Don't think I was a coward, You knew I was brave,
If you ever think of me sometime,
Can you remember me with love,
Imagine me floating with the clouds above.
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