There's story behind every scar marked on my body. There's a reason is to why I don't trust people wholeheartedly. Is to why I always question their intentions. Is to why I always seek the truth out of every situation. Is to why I doubt their everything in this world.
Once a girl's heart got broken, it would be broken. People will try to fix it but it will never be the same. They may be able to patch it but the scars will never be erased. They can cover it but it can never be deleted. That is the harsh reality of life. Once trust got broken, it will always be broken regardless of the efforts to make it whole again.
Life ditched me million times. Ugly truth slapped me with gusto in the countless times I can no longer remember. People give me stories I can no longer recall. People disappointed me more than I can tell. This is how I do it, I let them hurt me then I let then walk away freely.
Partly my fault because I don't seek for an apology. For me, this is no use talking about things that I can no longer change. Dealing with issues that caused me tremendous damage can never make me feel good about anything so I let them walk away with it. Silently wishing that my forgiveness would give me atleast a ray of light to change their wellbeing.
No, I am not a martyr. I just don't feel like having any sort of confrontations. Call me a coward but I'd rather take that than to talk about things that would make feel bad about life. I just want to be happy, that's my main goal in life.
It doesn't bother me anymore to hear people lie to my in a daily basis. It's like a common thing to me. It's like lying is more than easy than telling the truth. It's like deceiving people is a lot easy than giving them respcet. Well, I just have to accept that everyone has their own issues. I am not the one to judge them.
Having said that, I guess I just have to deal with the mere fact that life is what we make it. We are all gonna anyway. Might as well just enjoy it. Make the most out of it. Life is a cycle, I need to keep it rolling 'til the end.