One day have changed me. One person haschanged me. Even the smallest and remotest cell in my body.
Already from the first sight I knew everything was fucked up. You know what is the worst thing in life? It's not lie, fight, hate.. all of these are awful. But the worst is helplessness. That feeling when you can do absolutely nothing to change that thing now. You can just sit at the same place, watching time passing by. You still think about the same thing. And you don't know if you will ever know the answer and if you will, when? Also thinking about if you even wanna know the answer. You remember someone. Okay, remember is not the right word. You can't get that person off your mind just for one second. And you have no fucking idea if that person even thought about you just for a couple of seconds. And now you have no chance to find out. If he remembers your face from the 7 billion on this world. And you can't ask anybody. Because that person is on the other side of Earth. Maybe if someone would invent a teleport, that would be different. But teleport doesn't exist yet. What if the next time when we'll see each other, he won't recognize me? What will I do? I can't accept that. I know that there's small chance that he does remember me from the thousands of faces he has ever seen but I still believe he does. The thought of that he remembers me scares me but the thought of that he doesn't scare me a lot more. That it was a coincidence. That there was nothing behind the smile. Just a smile without reason.But I dont' believe that I believe this wasn't just a coincidence and that behind the smile were feelings and words. And I'm not gonna give up on this. NEVER. He made me question everything I've thought I was sure about. I doubt a lot of things since that moment. I've never felt like that when our eyes clashed and he smiled. It's like big flash hit you and in your body becomes something that is indescribable. And in that moment you feel that this is different. Exceptional.
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