Out of Focus

I can't focus right now
it's so hard to keep up
It's going round and round
I'm getting sick and tired

It is pulling me apart
all directions at a time
I am happy, I am sad
I'm frustrated yet rad

I'd like to hit reset
maybe it'll fix my head
or mayble smash it now
so that I can end it now

God Fucking Dammit
I shutdown more often
I tend to sleep more
but waking hurts more

I'm now writing this
to empty my head
maybe it'll help me
or I might end up dead

Keep typing
Keep writing
Keep that demon
Keep on fighting

Keep trying
but it's tiring
Don't even know
Why I'm fighting