Past Midnight

Listening.
It's easy tonight.
Don't comprehend. Just give it a second.
See? Close your eyes.
Feel the only thing you want to forget.
Soak in the misery of that last happy place.
Then shout. No one cares.
They're all here to bully you to be true.
Never do what they tell you.

It's easy if you try.
As easy as when you told me that lie.
"Never lose that easy smile."
Well, it wasn't easy.
And you'd know it if only you had let yourself go.
If only you had given it a chance.

Fall...
Fall and I'll be there to break it.
I'll bring blankets and pillows.
Maybe we can make a trip of it.
Soft marshmallows and warm beer.
You said it yourself,
I can have both, if I can handle it.

All that's left good in the world,
I never really knew but that night was one of those.
A dose.
The only one I got.

Now it's scattered.
Pieces of what it used to be.
Put them back together, they will never resemble me.

I hate writing this.
Just so you know.
You will never read it, I made sure.
This is just how I will let go.

A note. A blink. Two wet blinks.
That's how you decided to go.