Patientia

Hello!

I do not know you. I do not know where you are. I do not know who you're with or if you're doing fine. I do not know what battles you are going through; if you have already decided what course you will take up in college or if you have a hard time coping with deadlines and exams in your school. I do not know what you are feeling right now. If you're sad maybe because you're childhood pet died or maybe because you haven't made your day productive, I do not know. I do not know if you're angry with yourself, thinking that you'll never be good enough. Or if you've already had your heart broken to a girl whose confused and haven't seen your value. I do not know if you're also writing to find the right words through your notions. I do not know if you've already painted galaxies and dreamt that someday you will make an art, so beautiful, that every people who'd look at it will feel magic running through their veins. I do not know if you've sang on gigs playing with your instrument hoping someone would join you. I do not know if you're being patient because you're sure that God has the best in store. I do not know if you value everything because you know that everything is special. I do not know if you still kiss your mother and say I love you to her, or maybe guard your sister and comb her hair. I do not know if you have harmonious relationship with your family and you dream big with them. I do not know if you pray to God everyday, thanking Him for giving you another shot at life despite the trials. 

Right now, I have no idea with your life, and I am really sorry for that. I am sorry for not knowing you early. I am sorry for not being there when you need an arms to hold on to on your lows. When you had your first heartbreak or the time you start to doubt yourself because of what people say, I am sorry. When you need someone to share your opinions about how mental health is important but other people don't find it significant, or when you just need someone to talk to with your ideas and ambitions, I am sorry if I am not there. 

But somehow, I believe, He always has the best plans. I am still working on the best version of myself and I know that you are too. And when God knows we're ready, He will let the universe conspire for both of us to meet.

 Until then, I know what I have is right. I know you are the best man God assured me, the reason why I wait, because I know everything is beautiful in Him. Today, I may not know you, but in His time I know I will do. 

Sending you my regards. Take care everyday!