Isn't it crazy how you cry at night?
Begging for some love that you want from someone else?
Begging for some attention?
Why look for it? To someone who can't really give it to us? Let me answer that.
Maybe, because, it feels good to gain some love from someone else. Coz you love the feeling of being special to someone else's life. To finally the book of their lives not just a chapter. It's drowning to have the love and the attention that you we're begging for so long, but it feels good.
Sometimes that feeling is a curse, once you drown from it. It's hard to recover, to reach the surface. It's hard to start again to stand alone again. Coz you we're used to be special to him. But now, you we're just a trash to him, that he throw in the ocean, he don't care about the thing that you may cause if you drown the ocean. He don't care if you hurt yourself or the people around you. COZ you are no longer special.
It's hard not be special.