Randomness#1

When I was a child,  I created a very special character that I used to insert in every movie or series I would watch.  

It's a sort of all-seeing entity. My own personal deity in some sort. This ubiquitous being would follow the story and would be in all the movie scenes, follow all sequences, and exist with all the characters at all time.  It is invisible of course and no one in the whole movie knows about it, although I like to believe sometimes that they can feel it too. I am using "it" as mean of reference because I truly never felt that this entity had any gender or needed to have one. In contrast, I always feel our God is a He, even though genderlessness is an attribute of His. 

This character of mine just follows the events of the story without ever interfering physically or in any way that would make it known to others. It has the power to change the course of whatever is going on if it ever wished to. It could have saved Jack from sinking in the icy North Atlantic Ocean for example. But it didn't. 

The all-seeing entity has always been very comforting to feel around when I would be watching horror movies in particular. I would think to myself that I was not alone and that I did not have to be scared because the entity was there supervising everything and protecting me, so it would be okay at the end. Of course, not all movies have happy endings. Some end up in tragedies, and some have open ends. I like to think that it is the all-seeing entity's power that makes it so. It decides which stories get happy endings and which do not. I believe it has its set of rules to follow when it is molding the fate of every one of those characters. I also feel that breaking those rules would destroy the Universe. Good thing the all-seeing entity is there to make sure all movies end as they should. 

On some other level, I think this imaginary entity helped me cope as a child with all those unpleasant things that happened in movies or tragic endings (such as the one from Titanic) that I did not appreciate. Thinking that it was all part of some agenda made it all acceptable. 

As I am writing this, I am realizing that this imaginary being and how I thought and felt about it is actually a little microcosm of how religion is to millions and millions of people. Humans do tend to feel safe knowing that a powerful omniscient being is watching over them at all times, shaping their destiny as we they go on with life, and making them part of some big agenda it has prepared for all of them. Not to criticize any system of beliefs, but  it surely must feel scary sometimes to think that we are on our own in life and that behind what is happening to us, behind the not so happy endings that we encounter,  behind the tragedies and all the horror in this world, there is no purpose. 

I truly hope there is.