Realisations

After a while we become so numb to the difficulties life throws at us, that the effect is almost un-felt. And that's when we stop living. Because we stop feeling happiness too. We wander to every corner of our brain desperately finding a place for our inner solace. And boom! This brain is my foe too. 

The search continues. Maybe because that's all we can do. 

Every place we visit, we find its not the place for us. 

And one fine day, in the middle of all the chaos we've created, we find something. Not what we've have been looking for. Not what made us search so long. 

But something else. 

Something that comes to you like the first ray of a long dark sleepless night. Like the presence of a tiny smiling flower on the Windowsill of a gloomy child. Like the sound of praise you get for something you worked too hard for. Like the yellow-ed farms swaying in the sweet Sun shine merrily. Like a little Boy getting the toy he cried his lungs out for as a surprise. Like a girl who was always Condemned for her looks, being called pretty by her crush. Like all those things that put A smile on your face the moment you get an idea of being able to experience them. 

Yea. I know you know what Im talking about. 

But how about after a year of experiencing all this Every single day of your amazing life, one ugly day you are forced to give up on all this? Live a life without all this? Go back to the numb life with no feelings? 

Well I'll tell you what. 

Even though it seems like a point of no return because you are hurt till the very bottom of your 3-times-already-partially-repaired heart, you will be strong Once again. You will get up one day and find another reason to be happy and be able to feel what life has. You will stand on your feet taller than usual and look into the mirror Planning a new hairstyle or a new look for yourself. And you will realise, it wasn't worth wasting so many days of your life! 

You will realise life is not one person Who affects you. Life is the people you have an effect on. Its not what you suffer. Its about you helping others out of their suffering. Its not about reciting pain. Its about reciting Victory and glory and happiness and fun and all the things that bring a smile. :D 

Life is what you make it. 

It took me almost The first two decades of my life to realise this. But now that I have, I'm not gonna let the spirit die. 

M gonna keep this ignited. 

Ignited, because fire alone has the power to burn and illuminate- burn the sadness, illuminate my life. Brighter than the sun :D