Rest

The wind swiftly changed its direction, unannounced and without a warning. No siren to tell you something is coming, no time to prepare. The next blink of my eyes, tears came streaming down my face. Suddenly, I was deprived of breathing. My dear heart was clenched as it was drowning from its old friend, despair. 

Voices which spoke of laughter and love abruptly turned into anxiety. I hear you call my name but my voice was taken away from me. Ample thoughts stampeded my mind and deafened my heart. I need to escape.

I was at the top, and under the starry heaven. It was so clear that I could trace your name on the stars. And then everything became blurry, as the storm inside me burst out, free at last. I always knew this storm is yet to come, that the aftermath will result to massacre my shards of heart. Hiding and piling up all these pain for someone's happiness is definitely not a good idea. 

But you are my drug, I have no control thus I shall happily do it all over again if it means I get to keep a diamond. You are the only one that truly waters my heart and helped me grow. You see this ogre and yet still call her beautiful. You are that one small candle which burns so bright when the shadow of darkness creeps into my life. You burn to give me hope, and I do my best to give back that hope. But i'm almost burnt out. I need to rebuild myself so that I can still burn for you. You are in my DNA, you will always be.